So while L19 was down this happened:
I was actually kind of surprised, since I figured I'd have to win another game or two before the server finally bumped me up to 5K. Here's the game in question:
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])
I haven't really gone over it, but there are a few things that struck me during the game:
I played K3 in response to a shimari on the left, and I was stunned at how passively my opponent played on the second line. I figured as long as my opponent kept playing there, why not keep playing on the third line?
I had a feeling I should have been a bit more aggressive in pushing at the top; I'm thinking something like N15 instead of N14. Letting Black make easy life on the top made me worry about how far ahead I was or wasn't. I did make a point to see that I had more liberties than Black's stones on the right edge.
I was very pleased in the endgame to notice that if I played the monkey jump at D19, I'd get sente on that side, and then be able to play the monkey jump on the other side as well. I did play a few slack moves (like letting Black get D13), but I had counted and was pretty certain the game was already quite won by then.
For the rest of the day, when I've been thinking about go, I've been asking myself, "How much better have I been playing?" I think finally getting to KGS 5k is partly a result of playing better, though, and not just one hot streak. Over on DGS (where I'm 6k), thanks to the ladder I've been able to challenge a 3k and have two other games going with 4ks. The game against the 3k is one I'm finding really interesting, and one I'm looking forward to posting here once the game finishes. I've been trying really hard, and felt like I was making a competitive game of it... up until one specific move when my opponent invaded and I couldn't figure out how to respond, and I felt like I lost a lot of ground. If the game had continued the way it was going before that invasion and I lost by a small margin, I'd be mildly disappointed, but mostly invigorated, feeling like I'd played a good, engrossing game, and just wasn't quite good enough to beat somebody that much stronger than me. That the game seems to have turned suddenly, however, is mildly irritating.
That irritation is also due in part to the fact that the two games against the 4ks seem, as far as I can tell, to have been going tough for me pretty much from the start. One of the things the three games have hit home for me is that I still have a really difficult time finding the weak points in moyos. I have a hard time finding the right point to play to reduce my opponents' moyos, while my opponents find weaknesses that I never realized I have -- a common theme I've been mentioning quite a bit in this thread. There are times where it feels almost random to me where I'm supposed to play to exploit my opponents' weaknesses.
So where do we go from here? First, of course, I'd like to be able to maintain a stable 5k ranking. And then, I'd like to play
consistently competitive games against 4-6k players, not that I've gotten to play many even games against 4ks. If I can play well enough to make it to 4k in a relatively short amount of time, that would be great, but that's a bit later. The big thing is that, since I was bouncing between 6-7k for a good six years, with the exception of about a half dozen games as a 5k in the spring of 2011, getting back to 5k felt like a huge hurdle to overcome. And the consistency is a big thing, too. Every time I look at my rank graph, I've seen steep slopes where I won a bunch of games and got close to 5k without getting there, and other steep slopes where I fell precipitously quickly -- and even a few times where I ended up back at 8k. That, combined with some of the parts of the game I have difficulty with, have long made me feel as though my play is wildly inconsistent, with an inability to figure out what I've been doing differently during the winning streaks from the losing streaks.