So with Spring in the air and me having taken a trip down memory lane, I really wanted to play a game. I'm sick of being concerned with improving and whatnot. I decided to just play.
It's online, but I try not to blitz. Today it worked out okay at some points, though I completely ceased thinking and reading on the bottom, mindlessly imitating plays I remember from another context.
So while I got ahead initially, I lost my lead and was behind by 30 points there. Quite a lapse in concentration.
I do something desperate and it only takes two mistakes by my opponent to swing the game back to my favour. One is him missing a chance at seki instead of handing me the kill.
What follows is a great test (for someone like me, who is very prone to give away games where I'm leading, losing focus especially on computer Go) to stay focused and stay strong. Today I managed fine and black couldn't catch me with my pants down again.
Result:
Bad: I still played relatively blitz-y
Bad: the bottom sequence. I can't even ... Terrible ... Just no

Good: I find my focus again to go for the kill and to fend off Black's further attacks, both on the left and in the right bottom corner.
Good: Attack with a plan and by gaining territory (a lot of it)
I want to take home one or two lessons from each game. So I hope to get some help deciding what lessons to learn from this one.
I think one is:
- don't push your opponent to your own weak group (I attacked to make profit, but in turn weakened my own group. In my defense, I thought it was alive with 2 eyes. It almost was, but in the end it almost died / sekied
Maybe for the 2nd lesson:
- Connect back up if you can instead of letting yourself getting surrounded without certainty of life.
What do you think? Good conclusions based on the game?
Thanks!
(;GM[1]FF[4]CA[UTF-8]AP[CGoban:3]ST[2]
RU[Japanese]SZ[19]KM[6.50]TM[1800]OT[5x30 byo-yomi]
PW[Spoonsy]PB[spyder1]WR[7k]BR[7k]DT[2019-02-17]PC[The KGS Go Server at http://www.gokgs.com/]RE[W+Resign]
;B[pc]BL[1797.313]
;W[pp]WL[1795.427]
;B[qe]BL[1793.595]
;W[cd]WL[1782.724]
;B[dp]BL[1791.675]
;W[fd]WL[1779.728]
;B[ec]BL[1789.166]
;W[ed]WL[1772.035]
;B[dc]BL[1787.167]
;W[dd]WL[1767.232]
;B[cc]BL[1785.461]
;W[fc]WL[1763.085]
;B[fb]BL[1783.734]
;W[gb]WL[1759.917]
;B[ea]BL[1780.423]
;W[hc]WL[1749.017]
;B[bd]BL[1778.343]
;W[be]WL[1745.657]
;B[ad]BL[1776.144]
;W[cn]WL[1731.244]
;B[co]BL[1773.855]
;W[dn]WL[1729.779]
;B[fo]BL[1771.835]
;W[dj]WL[1724.791]
;B[nq]BL[1769.011]
;W[qn]WL[1719.651]
;B[kp]BL[1766.975]
;W[lc]WL[1709.609]C[Maybe a bit slow / passive.]
;B[jd]BL[1763.206]
;W[jc]WL[1699.56]
;B[kd]BL[1760.839]
;W[kc]WL[1684.227]
;B[ld]BL[1759.157]
;W[md]WL[1682.586]
;B[mc]BL[1757.14]
(;W[nd]WL[1679.176]C[not so good. See variation.]
;B[nc]BL[1755.678]
;W[od]WL[1671.24]
;B[oc]BL[1753.917]
;W[ng]WL[1661.397]C[now white and black both have a weak group on the board.]
;B[lg]BL[1750.915]
;W[pg]WL[1643.627]
;B[pj]BL[1746.929]
;W[ni]WL[1623.713]
;B[nk]BL[1743.646]
;W[ok]WL[1608.784]
;B[oj]BL[1741.648]
;W[nj]WL[1607.624]
;B[ol]BL[1740.027]
;W[pk]WL[1605.919]C[score estimator: white ahead by komi.]
;B[pl]BL[1738.042]
;W[qk]WL[1604.74]
;B[qj]BL[1736.67]
;W[ql]WL[1602.894]
;B[qg]BL[1732.058]
;W[qh]WL[1596.066]
;B[ph]BL[1727.089]
;W[oh]WL[1587.021]
;B[pi]BL[1725.086]
;W[qf]WL[1582.577]
;B[rg]BL[1723.455]
(;W[pe]WL[1572.507]
;B[rf]BL[1720.785]
;W[pf]WL[1570.704]
;B[qd]BL[1714.066]
;W[mk]WL[1568.524]
;B[nl]BL[1711.99]
;W[ml]WL[1567.399]
;B[nn]BL[1708.892]
;W[mn]WL[1562.34]
;B[mm]BL[1707.078]
;W[lm]WL[1561.108]
;B[nm]BL[1706.348]
;W[lj]WL[1554.514]
;B[rj]BL[1704.094]
;W[id]WL[1540.838]C[maybe not the best way to attack black.]
;B[jf]BL[1700.772]
;W[hf]WL[1537.953]C[Although I do it to make profit on the left side.]
;B[ig]BL[1698.136]
;W[hg]WL[1535.544]
;B[ih]BL[1696.576]
;W[hh]WL[1531.9]
;B[ii]BL[1695.267]
;W[gj]WL[1531.076]C[pure profit there.
Score estimator: white leads by 20]
;B[il]BL[1693.242]
;W[hn]WL[1492.81]
;B[jn]BL[1688.978]
(;W[hp]WL[1483.902]C[perhaps a mistake. Just connect back up.]
;B[gm]BL[1686.382]
;W[hr]WL[1472.927]C[even worse]
;B[gq]BL[1683.1]
;W[kq]WL[1468.514]C[following sequence was heavily under-read. Bad imitation of plays I've been in other contexts without reading if they work in this context. Spoiler alert, they don't.]
;B[lq]BL[1681.875]
;W[lr]WL[1464.206]
;B[kr]BL[1674.84]
;W[lp]WL[1449.945]
;B[jq]BL[1673.122]
;W[mq]WL[1445.171]
;B[mp]BL[1670.779]
;W[kq]WL[1443.273]
;B[lo]BL[1667.72]
;W[lq]WL[1441.439]
;B[mr]BL[1663.705]
;W[mo]WL[1434.201]
;B[np]BL[1658.218]
;W[ko]WL[1430.636]
;B[ls]BL[1656.482]C[I lost heavily during this 'invasion'
Score estimator: black leads by 30]
;W[kn]WL[1429.239]
;B[jo]BL[1654.219]
;W[fn]WL[1423.74]
;B[go]BL[1649.3]
;W[gn]WL[1422.002]
;B[ho]BL[1648.051]
;W[fl]WL[1409.003]
;B[km]BL[1644.567]
;W[ll]WL[1387.903]
;B[ln]BL[1642.619]
;W[eo]WL[1380.364]
;B[ep]BL[1640.629]
;W[ae]WL[1363.968]
;B[bb]BL[1637.547]
;W[ij]WL[1349.902]C[So I need drastic measures.]
;B[jj]BL[1635.554]
;W[ik]WL[1347.741]
;B[jk]BL[1634.255]
(;W[hl]WL[1334.127]C[So I have to back off.]
;B[hm]BL[1606.751]C[but black makes a big mistake. He should keep his center group connected.]
;W[jl]WL[1329.921]
;B[im]BL[1603.915]
;W[kl]WL[1326.908]
;B[hj]BL[1591.928]
;W[hk]WL[1322.742]
;B[hi]BL[1585.628]
;W[gi]WL[1321.159]
;B[fm]BL[1582.321]
;W[em]WL[1310.219]
;B[in]BL[1577.049]
(;W[gl]WL[1292.77]C[slow. Ugly triangle. But there are cutting points there.]
;B[mh]BL[1566.593]
;W[ki]WL[1286.595]
;B[ji]BL[1564.325]
;W[kh]WL[1281.969]
;B[nh]BL[1561.864]
;W[oi]WL[1278.8]
;B[mi]BL[1558.275]
;W[mj]WL[1268.649]
;B[nf]BL[1549.327]
;W[mg]WL[1266.328]
;B[mf]BL[1547.247]
;W[og]WL[1262.266]
;B[lh]BL[1545.656]
;W[kg]WL[1256.835]
;B[kf]BL[1543.334]
;W[ne]WL[1249.12]
;B[me]BL[1529.784]
;W[if]WL[1240.62]
;B[jg]BL[1526.373]
;W[lf]WL[1230.331]
;B[le]BL[1522.619]
;W[je]WL[1225.641]
;B[pd]BL[1519.901]
;W[oe]WL[1219.076]
(;B[jm]BL[1503.832]C[game losing mistake for black. He needs to poke out the white eye. I think it's seki if he does.]
;W[kk]WL[1215.237]C[But white kills black here. End of comments.]
;B[kj]BL[1499.296]
;W[li]WL[1211.449]
;B[lf]BL[1488.432]
;W[en]WL[1184.774]
;B[el]BL[1485.231]
;W[fk]WL[1178.613]
;B[dl]BL[1483.083]
;W[cl]WL[1175.031]
;B[ck]BL[1481.081]
;W[bl]WL[1172.623]
;B[dk]BL[1479.401]
;W[bk]WL[1169.37]
;B[cj]BL[1476.998]
;W[di]WL[1164.27]
;B[ci]BL[1475.297]
;W[bj]WL[1158.761]
;B[bi]BL[1472.749]
;W[bo]WL[1152.514]
;B[bp]BL[1470.419]
;W[ao]WL[1145.872]
;B[dh]BL[1465.604]
;W[fi]WL[1127.867]
;B[fg]BL[1458.646]
;W[cg]WL[1124.353]
;B[gh]BL[1456.584]
;W[fh]WL[1117.826]
;B[gg]BL[1454.918]
;W[eh]WL[1114.132]
;B[ej]BL[1453.011]
;W[eg]WL[1089.177]
;B[ei]BL[1447.49]
;W[ch]WL[1085.118]
;B[dg]BL[1444.023]
;W[df]WL[1082.733]
;B[fj]BL[1441.292]
;W[di]WL[1078.372]
;B[dh]BL[1435.234]
;W[dg]WL[1071.312]
;B[ap]BL[1423.769]
;W[bm]WL[1062.206]
;B[do]BL[1419.27]
;W[qq]WL[1049.685]
;B[rm]BL[1418.203]
;W[qm]WL[1047.028]
;B[rl]BL[1414.216]
;W[rk]WL[1043.489]
;B[sk]BL[1412.357]
;W[rn]WL[1037.321]
;B[sl]BL[1410.237]
;W[oo]WL[1031.246]
;B[no]BL[1408.176]
;W[or]WL[1017.752]
;B[op]BL[1400.085]
;W[po]WL[1003.324]
;B[rq]BL[1395.88]
;W[rp]WL[996.911]
;B[qr]BL[1392.436]
;W[pr]WL[991.799]
;B[sr]BL[1389.492]
;W[sp]WL[986.369]
;B[rs]BL[1387.291]
;W[sq]WL[982.005]
;B[oq]BL[1383.607]
;W[pq]WL[976.045]
;B[os]BL[1381.181]
;W[ns]WL[968.282]
;B[nr]BL[1370.49]
;W[ps]WL[966.402]
;B[ms]BL[1366.829]
;W[mb]WL[963.637]
;B[nb]BL[1364.698]
;W[lb]WL[962.896]
;B[an]BL[1351.852]
;W[bn]WL[958.677]
;B[dm]BL[1350.056]
;W[aj]WL[946.431]
;B[ge]BL[1330.406]
;W[gf]WL[938.577]
;B[ie]BL[1324.198]
;W[he]WL[931.009]
;B[gd]BL[1320.105]
;W[fe]WL[922.095]
;B[ib]BL[1314.018]
;W[hb]WL[913.293]
;B[ic]BL[1311.363]
;W[jb]WL[906.888]
;B[ia]BL[1308.01]
;W[ha]WL[900.578]
;B[ga]BL[1284.654]
;W[ja]WL[892.454]
;B[fa]BL[1282.404]
;W[da]WL[890.76]
;B[eb]BL[1280.687]
;W[sn]WL[877.617]
;B[sj]BL[1277.294]
;W[na]WL[850.43]
;B[oa]BL[1275.322]
;W[ma]WL[849.758]
;B[ek]BL[1265.943]
;W[gk]WL[848.291]
;B[am]BL[1261.757]
;W[al]WL[846.083]C[Black resigns]
(;B[ca]C[He needs one more move to live here, too.])
(;B[sa]
;W[ab]
(;B[bc]
;W[ba]
(;B[cb]
;W[ca])
(;B[ca]
;W[cb]))
(;B[aa]
;W[ba])
(;B[ca]
;W[bc]
;B[aa]
;W[ac]
;B[db]
;W[ba]C[ko])))
(;B[kk]
;W[ie]
(;B[li])
(;B[kj]
;W[li]
;B[lf]
;W[ke]
;B[of])))
(;W[ki]
;B[gk]
;W[gl]
;B[el]
;W[fk]
;B[dm]
;W[en]
;B[dl]
(;W[cl]
;B[cm]
;W[bm]
;B[bn])
(;W[bl]
;B[cm]
;W[bm]
;B[bn]))
(;W[el]C[perhaps better.]))
(;W[jl]C[can't quite cut here...]
;B[kl]
;W[ji]
;B[ki]
;W[jh]
;B[kh]
;W[kk]
;B[jm]))
(;W[fn]))
(;W[pf]
;B[rf]
;W[re]
;B[rd]
(;W[rh]
;B[ri]
;W[sg]
;B[se]
;W[si])
(;W[qd])
(;W[pe]
;B[qd])))
(;W[nc]
(;B[mb]
;W[nb]
;B[nd]
;W[me]
;B[lb]
;W[kb]
;B[ic]
;W[ib]
;B[ka]
;W[id]
(;B[ob])
(;B[na]
;W[ma]
;B[la]))
(;B[nd]
;W[mb]
;B[me]
;W[mc]
;B[ne]
;W[qj])))
Some self review with Leela, comments in the file. Stops at move 164, except for a final comment at the end, about the corner up top.