The last game of this series! It's been one hell of a ride. I've made some pretty awful mistakes, and I made some good moves. I turned the tables more than once and I lost when I was ahead.
I've learned many things on a short time, and I think after a while even more will settle down into my brain with some distance.
I'll rewatch all my reviews from this series and your comments and make a list of the most important things said/learned and post that in my study journal tomorrow.
For now, enjoy the finale of this series, against no less than a 7 kyu.
(;GM[1]FF[4]CA[UTF-8]AP[CGoban:3]ST[2]
RU[Japanese]SZ[19]KM[6.50]TM[2400]OT[3x30 byo-yomi]
PW[LisaSlmtv]PB[IanButler]WR[7k]BR[12k]DT[2018-04-11]PC[The KGS Go Server at http://www.gokgs.com/]C[The final game. I play a 7 kyu opponent. A serious challenge! I don't expect to win, but I'll play for every single point.]RE[W+6.50]
;B[pd]BL[2393.34]C[I'll be black here.]
;W[dp]WL[2391.119]C[My opponent is white.]
;B[qp]BL[2388.101]C[This is all okay.]
;W[dc]WL[2386.536]C[Yes.]
;B[op]BL[2384.117]C[I make an enclosure. Looks good.]
;W[de]WL[2359.401]LB[pj:A]C[White does, too. Looks a bit odd, but I guess it's okay. A seems like a big move now.]
;B[jc]BL[2378.76]C[But this seems equally good, preventing a large extension from my opponent's enclosure.]
;W[jq]WL[2354.933]C[Large extension.]
;B[pj]BL[2374.575]C[I'm building!]
;W[qf]WL[2348.813]C[So of course white comes to break it up.]
;B[qe]BL[2365.142]TR[pj]C[I can kick here, with the marked stone in place.]
;W[pf]WL[2339.908]C[White, of course, makes itself stronger.]
;B[md]BL[2354.514]TR[jc]C[I can go high and this works well with my marker stone.]
;W[qi]WL[2317.089]C[An odd move for white.]
;B[qj]BL[2350.129]C[Makes me stronger.]
;W[pi]WL[2313.864]C[But white has got a base. Not the strongest but it's fine for now.]
;B[oi]BL[2347.23]C[Hane at the head of two stones.]
;W[oh]WL[2311.652]C[White has to react.]
;B[ni]BL[2324.83]C[Leela wants to double hane but I was afraid a bit for that. I choose the safer move.]
;W[ng]WL[2253.723]C[Odd choice, but okay.]
;B[lq]BL[2316.843]C[Good!]
;W[jo]WL[2251.258]C[This is okay.]
;B[lo]BL[2312.604]C[I'll jump, too.]
;W[km]WL[2248.841]C[White bends me back.]
;B[lm]BL[2310.631]C[I attach.]
;W[ll]WL[2246.685]C[She does the hane.]
(;B[ml]BL[2305.157]C[I follow. Leela says: crosscut.]
;W[kk]WL[2224.321]LB[mk:B][mm:C][kn:A]C[A safe move. I was thinking A or B, or C.]
;B[mm]BL[2299.812]LB[kn:A]C[Too safe. My other options were a lot better. Leela liked A best.]
;W[mk]WL[2194.685]C[Good shape point.]
;B[nk]BL[2296.816]C[Have to hane.]
;W[mj]WL[2172.301]C[I don't have to react to that right now.]
;B[cj]BL[2292.933]C[I play the splitting move.]
;W[cl]WL[2140.394]C[Good]
;B[cg]BL[2289.601]C[Fine for me, I threaten to come under white's skirt there.]
;W[hc]WL[2128.831]C[White makes an extension from the enclosure.]
;B[cq]BL[2278.791]C[And I jump in the corner. Leela approves.]
;W[cp]WL[2122.353]C[Leela says other direction, but it'll turn out fine.]
;B[dq]BL[2276.367]C[Joseki]
;W[eq]WL[2120.09]C[Joseki]
;B[er]BL[2275.049]C[Joseki]
;W[fr]WL[2118.83]C[This is a variant. I don't know the proper response, I'll have to come up with it myself.]
;B[fq]BL[2268.658]C[I feel I have to do this.]
;W[ep]WL[2109.463]C[White defends, yes.]
;B[gr]BL[2265.933]C[Now do this?]
;W[dr]WL[2100.057]C[White threatens to take back the corner.]
;B[fs]BL[2254.31]TR[jo][jq]C[I feel I have to take and give up the corner stones. But white's variation turned out really well with the marked stones there.]
;W[cr]WL[2095.649]C[My stones in the corner don't look so hot. Though Leela says there's a way to handle them.]
(;B[jr]BL[2238.665]C[So I threaten to link up my stones. Probably a little far fetched but these are desperate times!]
;W[ir]WL[2070.958]C[Good]
;B[iq]BL[2232.008]C[Okay let the madness begin. I am desperate and will look for anything.]
;W[hq]WL[2032.632]C[Okay]
(;B[hr]BL[2226.94]C[I could've extended, too.]
;W[ip]WL[2025.948]C[Take]
;B[is]BL[2224.38]C[Atari]
;W[kr]WL[2019.755]C[White doesn't want me linking up.]
;B[iq]BL[2214.093]C[Ko, then?]
;W[kq]WL[2016.246]C[No connecting for me.]
;B[hp]BL[2209.477]C[In that case I want to live.]
;W[ir]WL[2013.601]C[White takes the ko.]
;B[dl]BL[2189.728]C[Ko threat? I think so.]
;W[dm]WL[2007.847]C[White reacts. ]
;B[iq]BL[2186.521]C[I take]
;W[gp]WL[1969.222]C[Weird move by white. She chickens out?]
;B[gq]BL[2164.633]C[And I make a live shape! This is a success. Well, after the failure in the corner initially.]
;W[ho]WL[1956.895]C[Good.]
;B[ir]BL[2157.141]C[Too safe now, not necessary yet.]
;W[fp]WL[1951.995]C[Slow, but understandable.]
;B[dk]BL[2137.91]C[Okay now let's put that stone to work!]
;W[em]WL[1944.291]C[White uses his wall to build. Fine by me.]
;B[eg]BL[2132.875]C[I'll take what I can have here, because I am behind still. With these last few moves, though, Leela puts us at 50-50 again.]
;W[fk]WL[1887.6]C[Leela doesn't find this move, which means it's probably not worth enough.]
;B[bl]BL[2114.168]C[Good move.]
;W[bm]WL[1866.108]C[Fine.]
;B[bk]BL[2100.896]C[Okay.]
;W[mr]WL[1843.26]C[Okay. I have to give up part of that corner.]
;B[nr]BL[2081.945]C[I defend here.]
;W[mq]WL[1839.107]C[As expected]
;B[nq]BL[2076.342]C[Yes.]
;W[mp]WL[1837.183]C[Yes]
;B[mo]BL[2068.796]C[Good.]
;W[np]WL[1831.998]C[Push]
;B[oo]BL[2058.241]C[Stay strong.]
;W[no]WL[1822.211]C[Push]
;B[nn]BL[2056.243]C[And block.]
;W[lp]WL[1820.641]C[This is just slow.
And now I click way too fast.]
;B[ko]BL[2052.432]C[I click and realize: mistake. I don't need to play here.
Keep your finger of that mouse more often. Played too quickly.]
;W[kd]WL[1811.305]C[A reduction.]
;B[kc]BL[2050.428]C[I'm feeling assaulted.]
;W[ld]WL[1807.742]C[Push]
;B[lc]BL[2048.822]C[And stay connected. I'm just biding my time to do my damage.]
;W[jd]WL[1806.713]C[Has that time come?]
;B[rf]BL[2046.988]C[This is a defense/attack move.]
;W[rg]WL[1804.718]C[White defends.]
;B[rd]BL[2043.633]C[And I make sure my corner is safe.]
;W[sf]WL[1802.614]C[Yes, Solid connection would've been better.]
;B[re]BL[2041.295]
;W[me]WL[1799.297]C[Hane]
;B[nd]BL[2037.565]C[Extend.]
;W[id]WL[1796.641]C[Too small. My turn!]
;B[be]BL[2035.33]C[Worth a lot of points! Leela's #1 move, too.]
;W[hf]WL[1793.459]C[Too small.]
;B[gg]BL[2032.749]C[Not bad.]
;W[hg]WL[1791.957]C[Okay.]
;B[gi]BL[2029.799]C[Good!]
;W[ii]WL[1788.689]C[Submissive.]
;B[bc]BL[2012.95]C[Good!]
;W[hj]WL[1783.699]C[Okay-ish.]
;B[gj]BL[2011.398]C[Okay-ish.]
;W[gk]WL[1781.744]C[She has to.]
(;B[fj]BL[2005.203]C[I felt I needed to make this ugly shape, but Leela says I can easily tenuki. I feel safer with this here, though.]
;W[fe]WL[1775.884]C[Okay, but not overly ambitious.]
;B[gf]BL[2002.351]C[Same.]
;W[ge]WL[1773.942]
;B[hh]BL[1990.096]C[Better!]
;W[ih]WL[1769.399]C[White reacts.
Leela has black ahead slightly now!]
;B[mh]BL[1984.959]C[Good point.]
;W[lh]WL[1761.584]C[Okay.]
;B[ri]BL[1983.075]C[Nice!]
;W[rh]WL[1758.684]C[Defend]
;B[rj]BL[1971.672]C[And defend.]
;W[ns]WL[1745.875]C[White attacks.]
;B[or]BL[1966.777]C[Have to do this.]
;W[os]WL[1742.379]C[One more push?]
;B[ps]BL[1964.197]C[Fine.]
;W[ms]WL[1740.925]C[Connect.]
;B[pr]BL[1961.061]C[Gote for black.]
;W[kn]WL[1737.812]C[Not big enough for now.]
;B[ib]BL[1937.297]C[Okay, but not the best move. Still, on Leela's radar.]
;W[hb]WL[1723.898]C[Good.]
;B[ne]BL[1932.055]C[Small.]
;W[mf]WL[1719.545]C[Okay.]
;B[mg]BL[1926.853]C[Good.]
;W[lg]WL[1692.548]C[Big mistake, white.]
;B[nf]BL[1920.061]TR[pf][qf][sf][ng][rg][oh][rh][pi][qi]C[That group is now cut off and looks pretty bad! Black has the definite advantage now. But the game's not over yet.]
;W[nj]WL[1673.79]C[White pushes.]
;B[oj]BL[1915.853]C[I connect.]
;W[ln]WL[1668.394]C[Okay.]
;B[mn]BL[1911.409]C[Connect.]
;W[kp]WL[1665.768]C[Preparing for?]
;B[og]BL[1870.139]C[White can't live there.]
;W[mi]WL[1623.814]C[Something's in the air.]
;B[nh]BL[1859.526]C[And it ain't love.]
;W[nl]WL[1621.376]LB[om:A]C[There she goes! Leela says A. Variation]
(;B[ol]BL[1852.083]C[This is worse.]
;W[ok]WL[1617.003]C[Yes.]
;B[nm]BL[1839.985]C[And now, ladies and gentlemen...]
;W[om]WL[1614.886]LB[on:A]C[For my biggest fail...]
;B[nk]BL[1836.773]LB[on:A]C[I miss the point at A. Let me tell you how I got there. This was a heavy game, and I was really focused. White's past moves overwhelmed me a bit and when you lose emotionally, you lose the game. I got a bit intimidated and lost my rational mind for just a bit. I didn't even see I could connect my stones at A. I thought they were already dead and I started to salvage what I could.
I didn't even see the most obvious thing.
This is a big blunder, one that can't be excused and hardly explained. But these are things that happen and I can only hope they happen less and less often. Painful moment.]
;W[on]WL[1611.51]C[Very painful indeed.]
;B[pk]BL[1831.759]C[Yes]
;W[nl]WL[1609.996]C[Game over. Though Leela has us at 50-50 again. I thought I was completely done for at the time.]
;B[pm]BL[1828.667]C[Panic reaction.]
;W[pn]WL[1607.784]C[Yes.]
;B[qm]BL[1825.955]C[Retreat.]
;W[qn]WL[1605.373]C[Good]
;B[ro]BL[1820.717]C[Recovering my wits slightly.]
;W[rm]WL[1600.581]C[Hane. I should cut it off.]
;B[ql]BL[1812.581]C[But my wits haven't returned fully, yet.]
;W[rn]WL[1594.449]C[Yes. And now white is ahead by a lot, says Leela.
Poor black.]
;B[rl]BL[1781.991]C[Okay.]
;W[pp]WL[1587.78]C[This shouldn't work.]
;B[pq]BL[1772.168]C[I am completely intimidated.]
;W[po]WL[1585.098]C[Pulls back.]
;B[qo]BL[1765.301]C[Felt the safest.]
;W[qq]WL[1581.373]C[And now I finally find myself again. This does not work!]
;B[rq]BL[1753.471]C[It's not because I blunder that you can simply take whatever you want! Time to fight back, black!]
;W[so]WL[1578.299]C[Hane?]
;B[qr]BL[1747.92]C[Take!]
;W[oq]WL[1576.33]C[No matter.]
;B[sp]BL[1735.638]C[Now stay out.]
;W[sn]WL[1573.863]C[Slow]
;B[el]BL[1726.043]C[This, also.]
;W[fl]WL[1542.571]C[Okay.]
;B[cb]BL[1719.641]C[YES!]
;W[db]WL[1539.143]C[Good.]
;B[cc]BL[1709.133]C[I have made four empty triangles this game so far. I usually never make them.
Odd observation.]
;W[cd]WL[1507.842]C[Okay.]
;B[bd]BL[1707.052]C[Stay connected.]
;W[ce]WL[1506.06]C[Slow.]
;B[cf]BL[1705.17]C[I'll take points.]
;W[df]WL[1503.676]C[Slow.]
;B[dg]BL[1703.433]C[I'll take points.]
;W[ef]WL[1501.957]C[Even slower.]
;B[da]BL[1698.298]C[More points for me. Black fighting back, we're almost 50-50 again!]
;W[ea]WL[1498.222]C[Defend]
;B[ca]BL[1695.741]C[Connect.]
;W[fg]WL[1489.035]C[White does not need to defend. Lost my sente.]
;B[fh]BL[1692.578]C[Good]
;W[ff]WL[1486.242]C[Good]
;B[gh]BL[1689.931]C[Yes.]
;W[ek]WL[1484.01]C[Okay]
;B[ej]BL[1687.284]C[Okay.]
;W[cm]WL[1481.417]C[Yes]
;B[ck]BL[1660.377]C[Have to do this.]
;W[ic]WL[1464.999]C[Okay.]
;B[jb]BL[1658.075]C[Yes.]
;W[am]WL[1441.73]C[Why not the hane? To keep sente perhaps.]
;B[al]BL[1655.579]C[Yes.]
;W[ds]WL[1438.462]C[Good]
;B[es]BL[1653.397]C[Okay.]
;W[ks]WL[1436.871]C[Okay.]
(;B[ha]BL[1580.359]C[I have a better move. See variation. Only just now thought of it...]
;W[ga]WL[1398.133]C[Okay.]
;B[eb]BL[1564.958]C[IS this something?]
;W[fa]WL[1391.714]C[I guess not.]
(;B[ia]BL[1550.977]C[Yes.]
;W[gb]WL[1385.149]C[Yes.]
;B[sl]BL[1531.096]C[Okay.]
;W[]WL[1366.843]C[White passes.]
;B[ok]BL[1527.454]C[Not yet!]
;W[op]WL[1362.537]C[Good]
;B[hq]BL[1525.109]C[Good]
;W[]WL[1362.536]C[White passes]
;B[]BL[1525.109]TW[eb][fb][ec][fc][gc][dd][ed][fd][gd][hd][ee][he][ie][je][ke][le][if][jf][kf][lf][ig][jg][kg][jh][kh][ji][ki][li][ij][jj][kj][lj][hk][ik][jk][lk][gl][hl][il][jl][kl][ml][fm][gm][hm][im][jm][lm][mm][nm][an][bn][cn][dn][en][fn][gn][hn][in][jn][mn][nn][ao][bo][co][do][eo][fo][go][io][ko][lo][mo][oo][ap][bp][jp][aq][bq][cq][dq][lq][ar][br][lr][as][bs][cs][ls]TB[aa][ba][ja][ka][la][ma][na][oa][pa][qa][ra][sa][ab][bb][kb][lb][mb][nb][ob][pb][qb][rb][sb][ac][mc][nc][oc][pc][qc][rc][sc][ad][od][qd][sd][ae][oe][pe][se][af][bf][of][pf][qf][sf][ag][bg][ng][pg][qg][rg][sg][ah][bh][ch][dh][eh][oh][ph][qh][rh][sh][ai][bi][ci][di][ei][fi][pi][qi][si][aj][bj][dj][sj][ak][qk][rk][sk][pl][rp][qq][sq][fr][rr][sr][gs][hs][qs][rs][ss]C[And that's the end. I lose by 6.5, meaning Komi.
I made one blunder and several small mistakes. I feel like I played okay, though. This is a strong opponent and held up myself well. One tragic moment of being braindead and it's a loss. But that's okay. I have once again proven I am always willing to fight back, it just usually takes me a few moves to get started again.
This ends the series. What a finale it's been!
])
(;B[gb]
;W[ia]
;B[fb]
;W[ha]
;B[ec]
;W[dd]
;B[ja]))
(;B[fa]
;W[eb]
;B[ha]
;W[fb]
;B[ga]
;W[gb]
;B[ia]))
(;B[om]
;W[ok]
;B[ol]
;W[pk]
;B[nm]
;W[nk]
(;B[ql]
;W[qk]
;B[rk]
;W[pl]
;B[qm]
;W[pm])
(;B[pl]
;W[qk]
;B[ql]
;W[rk]
;B[sk]
;W[rl]
;B[rm]
;W[sl]
;B[sm]
;W[sj]
;B[si]
;W[sh]
;B[ng]
;W[sk]
;B[lf]
;W[kf]
;B[li]
;W[le]
;B[lj]
;W[lk])))
(;B[ri]
;W[fj]
;B[fi]
;W[ej]
;B[dj]
;W[ei]
;B[eh]
;W[di]
;B[ci]
;W[dh]
;B[dg]))
(;B[ip]
;W[hr]
;B[jp]C[Give up those stones, though.]))
(;B[bq]
;W[br]
(;B[ds]
;W[cs]
;B[ar]
;W[es]
;B[fr]
;W[bp]
;B[ds]
;W[aq])
(;B[bp]
;W[bo]
(;B[co]
;W[ap])
(;B[ao]
;W[ap]
;B[aq]
;W[an]
;B[bn]
;W[ap]
;B[co]
;W[ar]
;B[dm]
;W[cn]
;B[cm]
;W[do]
;B[bl]
;W[bm]
;B[ck]
;W[al]
;B[dl]))))
(;B[kl]
;W[ml]
;B[kn]
;W[jm]
;B[jn]
;W[kk]
;B[in]
;W[mm]
;B[ln]
;W[lk]
;B[ok]))
I won't say I should've won that game. Because I didn't. My opponent played well and did great in pushing me, leading to a big mistake. That's definitely her achievement.
But I will say this: I feel like I stood up in this game. I held my own and I feel like I can play 7 kyus and give them something to worry about.
I just need to get a little better.
(don't we always?)
Thanks everyone for your support throughout this series! Special thanks to knotwilg and Bill for your numerous comments. Everyone else who commented, I appreciate it a lot! And those just reading, I hope you perhaps learned something too, or had a lot of fun watching this DDK player mess about in 10 lovely games!
End score:
5 wins
5 losses
Perfect balance!