Mood much, much improved but in a steady non-manic way.

In something that people might in general find interesting: Self-compassion is key to good mental health: http://www.scientificamerican.com/artic ... tal-health (from a go perspective, the ability to not beat yourself up during losing streaks would be relevant)


Tsumego solving continues unabated. 200 problems into the set of 1000 now with a 94% success rate which is lower than I'd like but acceptable for a second run through I think.

That's great you are in a better mood and doing well.
94% is quite good! Sure 1% is only a trivial amount away anyway, almost an ϵ difference.

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我が道を行く。
I'll do it my way....

Eh, I'm being a perfectionist about it. I want 95% and that's that.

What happens if you get 96%?

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我が道を行く。
I'll do it my way....

I hadn't thought of that...

Hmmm. Sounds like time to do some harder problems. Shoot for 50%!

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The Adkins Principle:
At some point, doesn't thinking have to go on?
— Winona Adkins

Visualize whirled peas.

Everything with love. Stay safe.

The quest for the perfect problem set never ends does it?

Tom gave me a beating on two stones:



I think I played far, far too passively throughout the game. I left him keep sente far too long. was terrible as was . I was very much not on form tonight. We didn't get to finish the game, we had to get the club up and running and give teaching games to the new people but SmartGo has him ahead by around 15.

Some comments.



Edit: Added variations to , var. 5, showing perhaps stiffer resistance by White.

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The Adkins Principle:
At some point, doesn't thinking have to go on?
— Winona Adkins

Visualize whirled peas.

Everything with love. Stay safe.

Thank you Bill for the detailed comments.

Thanks Boidhre as always for putting up the game! And Bill as always thanks for your detailed comments.
Looking at the game now it seems that white leaves too many weaknesses behind. I think when black gets abit stronger he will start to trash me!

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我が道を行く。
I'll do it my way....

Edited latest commentary.

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The Adkins Principle:
At some point, doesn't thinking have to go on?
— Winona Adkins

Visualize whirled peas.

Everything with love. Stay safe.

Played a friend on OGS. We agreed afterwards that 2 stones was too much. (Mostly posted for tomukaze as we discussed the game briefly yesterday)



My opponent is 9k KGS. 2 stones was due to OGS's ranking system and me having let all my games time out whilst depressed recently.

White lost.



Main focus: Play on the frontier of frameworks. Make multi-purpose plays.

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The Adkins Principle:
At some point, doesn't thinking have to go on?
— Winona Adkins

Visualize whirled peas.

Everything with love. Stay safe.

Thank you Bill.

Edit: Actually "White lost" sums up how I've been playing lately very well.

I agree with Bill's statement here. I don't think black played poorly by any means, but white did not play in a manner to win. The endgame started around move 59! White really needed to start more groups and challenge black's claims.

Oh I don't disagree with that sentiment. I got away with murder. I'm more just being negative because I'm down at the moment.

Got hammered by Anthony. Played terribly. I'm not sure what's going on mentally with me at the moment but I feel quite a bit weaker than I was. Whether it's the depression or the Lithium (it's associated with cognitive dulling) I'm not sure. I know from other things in my life that my head isn't right at the moment. I really hope it's not the Lithium. The other thing it could be is the benzos from yesterday still being in my system. Hmm, so many possible thing, never mind just a plain old bad playing day! Regardless go is proving quite frustrating to play when combined with bipolar mood swings and medication that affects one cognitively.



We thought the bottom right was a seki but looking at it afterwards I can see that it's just dead. So the result is W+70 odd or something silly like that. I played a lot of dumb moves in this game, I just was not focused well at all. He could have beaten me on 9 stones today I think, I just wasn't with it. I don't know, I just feel dumber at the board lately and I'm trying to figure out why.

I need convincing on this! Surely white has to add a move to kill!

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我が道を行く。
I'll do it my way....

White needs one more move to kill I think. T3 for Black makes it a seki, T3 for White kills. Or that's as best I can work out at the moment.