Life In 19x19

Played another game on the AYD. Against my nemesis (actually just my friend :-p), boltar.

Here it is:


I won the game. During the game, I turned on some music, and enjoyed myself. I've been thinking a lot about my last two posts. I think I came up with an idea that gives me some sense of peace for now.

That is: it doesn't make sense for me to study go. Look at the graph - I won't get that much better at this rate unless I make a big change, and there are no huge goals that I have for go in the near future. But despite that, I love - and hate - the game. And sometimes, for things and people you love, you do things that don't make sense.

Onward...

I've had a bit of a hiatus from the forum, but I haven't been stopping with go. I'm still in both BIBA and AYD. Not sure if it's really worth all of the money, when I could just play online, but I've still been having fun.

I have neglected to put games up for review, though, so I'll try to get back into it.

Here's a game that I lost. Blackie, from BIBA, reviewed it today.

Highlights

Position 1

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[go]$$Bc
$$ ---------------------------------------
$$ | . . X . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . X X X . . . . . . . . . X X O O . . |
$$ | . O X O . X . . . . . X . O . X O . . |
$$ | . O X O . . . X . , . . . . . X O . . |
$$ | . O X O . . . . . . . . . . . X . . . |
$$ | . X O X . O . . . . . . . . . W O . . |
$$ | . O O . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . , . . . . . , . . . . . , . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . X . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . X . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . , O . . . . , . . . . . X . . . |
$$ | . . . O . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ ---------------------------------------[/go]

My move above is big, but I guess it's too soon. I was worried about all of black's points on the top, but the bottom is still open for development!

Blackie pointed out that I don't need to be afraid:

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[go]$$Bc
$$ ---------------------------------------
$$ | . . X . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . X X X . . . . . . . . . X X O O . . |
$$ | . O X O . X . . . . . X . O . X O . . |
$$ | . O X O . . . X . , 2 . . . . X O . . |
$$ | . O X O . . . . . . . . . . . X . . . |
$$ | . X O X . O . . . . . . . . . . O . . |
$$ | . O O . . . . . . . . . . . 1 . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . , . . . . . , . . . . . , . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . X . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . X . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . , O . . . . , . . . . . X . . . |
$$ | . . . O . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ ---------------------------------------[/go]

Even if I play elsewhere, it's not like black gets something huge on the top.

So first lesson is: chill out.

Position 2

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[go]$$Bc
$$ ---------------------------------------
$$ | . . X . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . X X X . . . . . . . . . X X O O . . |
$$ | . O X O . X . . . . . X . O . X O . . |
$$ | . O X O . . . X . , . . . X . X O . . |
$$ | . O X O . . . . . . . . . . . X O . . |
$$ | . X O X . O . . . . . O X X X O O . . |
$$ | . O O . . . . . . . . O . O O X . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . O X X . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . O X O . . . . |
$$ | . . . , . . . . . , . . O X . X . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . O X . . . . . |
$$ | . . X . . . . . . . . . . X . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . O . . |
$$ | . . X . . . . . . . . . . X . . . . . |
$$ | . . . , O . . . . , . . O X . X . . . |
$$ | . . . O . . . . . . . . . O . W . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ ---------------------------------------[/go]

This is just my fixed idea from double approach joseki. I didn't think very logically here, and just had the pattern in my head. Of course, black desires the right side more here in order to make use of his potential territory there. Therefore, I can grab more with the 3-3:

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[go]$$Wc
$$ ---------------------------------------
$$ | . . X . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . X X X . . . . . . . . . X X O O . . |
$$ | . O X O . X . . . . . X . O . X O . . |
$$ | . O X O . . . X . , . . . X . X O . . |
$$ | . O X O . . . . . . . . . . . X O . . |
$$ | . X O X . O . . . . . O X X X O O . . |
$$ | . O O . . . . . . . . O . O O X . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . O X X . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . O X O . . . . |
$$ | . . . , . . . . . , . . O X . X . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . O X . . . . . |
$$ | . . X . . . . . . . . . . X . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . O . . |
$$ | . . X . . . . . . . . . . X . . . . . |
$$ | . . . , O . . . . , . . O X . X 2 . . |
$$ | . . . O . . . . . . . . . O . 3 1 . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ ---------------------------------------[/go]

It's pretty logical when I think about it. But during the game, I just had that joseki sequence in my head.

So second lesson is: think about the specific situation - not only in "joseki chunks".

Position 3
Blackie didn't like my move here:

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[go]$$Bc
$$ ---------------------------------------
$$ | . . X . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . X X X . . . . . . . . . X X O O . . |
$$ | . O X O . X . . . . . X . O . X O . . |
$$ | . O X O . . . X . , . . . X . X O . . |
$$ | . O X O . . . . . . . . . . . X O . . |
$$ | . X O X . O . . . . . O X X X O O . . |
$$ | . O O . . . . . . . . O . O O X . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . O X X . O . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . O X O X O . . |
$$ | . . . , . . . . . , . . O X . X . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . O X . . . X . |
$$ | . . X . . . . . . . . . . X . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . W . . . . . . . O . . |
$$ | . . X . . . . . . . . . O X . . . . . |
$$ | . . . , O . . . X , . . O X . X X . . |
$$ | . . . O . . . . . . . . . O O O X . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ ---------------------------------------[/go]

My thought during the game was:
- Black has a lot of points
- I gotta make up those points
- I have potential in the center
- Capping gives me potential for more points in the center

Blackie's recommendation was this:

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[go]$$Bc
$$ ---------------------------------------
$$ | . . X . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . X X X . . . . . . . . . X X O O . . |
$$ | . O X O . X . . . . . X . O . X O . . |
$$ | . O X O . . . X . , . . . X . X O . . |
$$ | . O X O . . . . . . . . . . . X O . . |
$$ | . X O X . O . . . . . O X X X O O . . |
$$ | . O O . . . . . . . . O . O O X . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . O X X . O . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . O X O X O . . |
$$ | . . . , . . . . . , . . O X . X . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . O X . . . X . |
$$ | . . X . . . . . . . . . . X . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . O . . |
$$ | . . X . . . . . . . . . O X . . . . . |
$$ | . . . , O . . . X , . . O X . X X . . |
$$ | . . . O . . . . . . W . . O O O X . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ ---------------------------------------[/go]

His point is to:
- Make points by attacking
- Defend my weakpoint

So maybe my assessment of point-making potential is wrong here. Lesson is: weak group may be more of a liability than I'm inclined to think.

Still, this mistake is a bit harder to understand than the others I've mentioned here so far.

Position 4

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[go]$$Bc
$$ ---------------------------------------
$$ | . . X . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . X X X . . . . . . . . . X X O O . . |
$$ | . O X O . X . . . . . X . O . X O . . |
$$ | . O X O . . . X . , . . . X . X O . . |
$$ | . O X O . . . . . . . . . . . X O . . |
$$ | . X O X . O . . . . . O X X X O O . . |
$$ | . O O . . . . . . . . O . O O X . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . O X X . O . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . O X O X O . . |
$$ | . . . , . . . . . , . . O X . X . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . O X . . . X . |
$$ | . . X . . . . . . . . . . X . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . X O . . . . O . . . . . . . O . . |
$$ | . . X . . O O . . . . . O X . . . . . |
$$ | . . . , O X O X X , . . O X . X X . . |
$$ | . . . O W X X O X . X . . O O O X . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . O . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ ---------------------------------------[/go]

I played the move above to capture the black stones. Nice that I could capture them. But not ideal. Both Blackie and AI recommend this:

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[go]$$Wc
$$ ---------------------------------------
$$ | . . X . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . X X X . . . . . . . . . X X O O . . |
$$ | . O X O . X . . . . . X . O . X O . . |
$$ | . O X O . . . X . , . . . X . X O . . |
$$ | . O X O . . . . . . . . . . . X O . . |
$$ | . X O X . O . . . . . O X X X O O . . |
$$ | . O O . . . . . . . . O . O O X . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . O X X . O . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . O X O X O . . |
$$ | . . . , . . . . . , . . O X . X . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . O X . . . X . |
$$ | . . X . . . . . . . . . . X . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . X O . . . . O . . . . . . . O . . |
$$ | . . X . . O O . . . . . O X . . . . . |
$$ | . . . , O X O X X , . . O X . X X . . |
$$ | . . . O . X X O X . X . . O O O X . . |
$$ | . . . . . 3 . O 1 2 . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ ---------------------------------------[/go]

Why didn't I play that? I guess my inclination was that the exchange at the bottom gives black good shape. Maybe I missed the point that in the game, black has the first line sente move. So that's maybe even better shape for black and more effective for living. And also, the way I played in the game gets fewer points.

I guess the lesson is: think more about what the opponent can do with your own weaknesses.

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So today's lessons are:
1. chill out
2. think about the specific situation - not only in "joseki chunks"
3. weak group may be more of a liability than I'm inclined to think
4. think more about what the opponent can do with your own weaknesses

And here is where I got lucky in the AYD just now...

Some highlights...

Position 1

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[go]$$Bc
$$ ---------------------------------------
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . X X O . . |
$$ | . . . . B O X . . . . . . X . X O X . |
$$ | . . . O . . O . . , . . . O X O X . . |
$$ | . O O . . . . . . . . . X X X O X . . |
$$ | . X X X . . . . . . . . . O O O X X . |
$$ | . . . X . . . . . . . . . . . O O X . |
$$ | . . O X O X . . . . . . . . . O X O . |
$$ | . X X O X X O . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . X O O O O X X . , . . . . . , O . . |
$$ | . X X O . . O . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . O X O X O . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | O . O X O . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . O . X O . . . . . . . . . . O O . . |
$$ | X X X X X O . . . . . . . . . . X . . |
$$ | . O O , X O . . . , . . . . . X . . . |
$$ | . . . O O O . . . . X . . X . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ ---------------------------------------[/go]

The marked move was a really interesting move by black. I don't really understand it, but it seemed somehow effective in this game.

Position 2

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[go]$$Bc
$$ ---------------------------------------
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . X . X W . . . . . . . X X O . . |
$$ | . . . . X O X . . . . . . X . X O X . |
$$ | . . . O O O O . . , . . . O X O X . . |
$$ | . O O . . . . . . . . . X X X O X . . |
$$ | . X X X . . . . . . . . . O O O X X . |
$$ | . . . X . . . . . . . . . . . O O X . |
$$ | . . O X O X . . . . . . . . . O X O . |
$$ | . X X O X X O . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . X O O O O X X . , . . . . . , O . . |
$$ | . X X O . . O . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . O X O X O . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | O . O X O . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . O . X O . . . . . . . . . . O O . . |
$$ | X X X X X O . . . . . . . . . . X . . |
$$ | . O O , X O . . . , . . . . . X . . . |
$$ | . . . O O O . . . . X . . X . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ ---------------------------------------[/go]

The marked move was a lot riskier than I expected. I figured I'd eat the top territory and keep my cake.

I almost starved without crumbs.

Position 3

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[go]$$Bc
$$ ---------------------------------------
$$ | X . . X . O X . . W . . . X . . . . . |
$$ | X . . X X X O O O . . . O . X X O . . |
$$ | X X X O X O X X X O O O X X . X O X . |
$$ | O . . O O O O . X X O . . O X O X . . |
$$ | . O O . . . . . X . X . X X X O X . . |
$$ | . X X X . X O . X X . . . O O O X X . |
$$ | . . . X X O O O O . . . . . . O O X . |
$$ | . . O X . X X X O O . . . . . O X O . |
$$ | . X X O X X O . X . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . X O O O O X X . , . . . . . , O . . |
$$ | . X X O . . O . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . O X O X O . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | O . O X O . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . O . X O . . . . . . . . . . O O . . |
$$ | X X X X X O . . . . . . . . . . X . . |
$$ | . O O , X O . . . , . . . . . X . . . |
$$ | . . . O O O . . . . X . . X . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ ---------------------------------------[/go]

I think the marked move was a bad choice in this capturing race. Instead, I think expanding eyespace is better:

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[go]$$Bc
$$ ---------------------------------------
$$ | X . . X . O X . . . . . W X . . . . . |
$$ | X . . X X X O O O . . . O . X X O . . |
$$ | X X X O X O X X X O O O X X . X O X . |
$$ | O . . O O O O . X X O . . O X O X . . |
$$ | . O O . . . . . X . X . X X X O X . . |
$$ | . X X X . X O . X X . . . O O O X X . |
$$ | . . . X X O O O O . . . . . . O O X . |
$$ | . . O X . X X X O O . . . . . O X O . |
$$ | . X X O X X O . X . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . X O O O O X X . , . . . . . , O . . |
$$ | . X X O . . O . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . O X O X O . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | O . O X O . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . O . X O . . . . . . . . . . O O . . |
$$ | X X X X X O . . . . . . . . . . X . . |
$$ | . O O , X O . . . , . . . . . X . . . |
$$ | . . . O O O . . . . X . . X . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ ---------------------------------------[/go]

In contrast to the last game I shared here, this game really seemed mostly like a life and death problem. So the best lesson I can take is to increase my reading ability...

Maybe I should also be careful when I think I'm ahead.

A couple of comments from Inseong:

1.) My idea to expand wasn't ideal:

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[go]$$Bc
$$ ---------------------------------------
$$ | X . . X . O C 4 . 2 1 . W X . . . . . |
$$ | X . . X X X O O O 5 3 . O . X X O . . |
$$ | X X X O X O X X X O O O X X . X O X . |
$$ | O . . O O O O . X X O . . O X O X . . |
$$ | . O O . . . . . X . X . X X X O X . . |
$$ | . X X X . X O . X X . . . O O O X X . |
$$ | . . . X X O O O O . . . . . . O O X . |
$$ | . . O X . X X X O O . . . . . O X O . |
$$ | . X X O X X O . X . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . X O O O O X X . , . . . . . , O . . |
$$ | . X X O . . O . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . O X O X O . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | O . O X O . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . O . X O . . . . . . . . . . O O . . |
$$ | X X X X X O . . . . . . . . . . X . . |
$$ | . O O , X O . . . , . . . . . X . . . |
$$ | . . . O O O . . . . X . . X . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ ---------------------------------------[/go]

So it was a little more nuanced than I thought.

2.) One of the more interesting comments from Inseong was that my choice here wasn't ideal:

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[go]$$Bc
$$ ---------------------------------------
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . O . . . . . . . . . X . . . |
$$ | . . . O . . . . . , . . . . . W . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . X . . . . . . . . . . . . . X . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . , . . . . . , . . . . . , O . . |
$$ | . . X . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . O O . . |
$$ | . . X X . . . . . . . . . . . . X . . |
$$ | . . O , . . . . . , . . . . . X . . . |
$$ | . . . O . O . . . . . . . X . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ ---------------------------------------[/go]

The AI thought that, too, but Inseong gave a reason: white already has a position on the right side. So after the sequence we played out, the marked stone here isn't efficient:

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[go]$$Bc
$$ ---------------------------------------
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . X X O . . |
$$ | . . . . . O . . . . . . . X . X O . . |
$$ | . . . O . . . . . , . . . O X O X . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . X X X O X . . |
$$ | . . X . . . . . . . . . . O O O X X . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . O O X . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . X O . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . , . . . . . , . . . . . , W . . |
$$ | . . X . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . O O . . |
$$ | . . X X . . . . . . . . . . . . X . . |
$$ | . . O , . . . . . , . . . . . X . . . |
$$ | . . . O . O . . . . . . . X . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ ---------------------------------------[/go]

I think it makes sense, in retrospect. How should this be encapsulated into a lesson? I guess I should keep in mind that empty areas are more important than ones that are already occupied.

I played another AYD game today. It was a fun game, but I lost.

Reviewing with KataGo briefly, I went down to about a 30% winrate early on, and then made a comeback, getting to about a 96% winrate by move 106... Then I died and threw it away

Here's the game.

Looking at the major turning points with KataGo, I really fell quite a bit behind with this move:

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[go]$$Bc
$$ ---------------------------------------
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . B . b . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . X O . X . . . . . . . X . . X O . |
$$ | . . . O . . . . . O . . . . . X O O . |
$$ | . X . . . . . . . . . . . . . X X O . |
$$ | . . X O O . . . . . . . . . . X O . . |
$$ | . . O X . . . . . . . . . . . . O . . |
$$ | . . a . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . , . . . . . , . . . . . , . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . O . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . O . . . . . , . . . . . X . . . |
$$ | . . . . . X . . . . . . . X . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ ---------------------------------------[/go]

In the game, I was a little arrogant and thought that white had made a mistake. My move, I reasoned, let me have 'a' and 'b' in miai. I didn't really think about white's response, which was good, and put me really far behind:

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[go]$$Bc
$$ ---------------------------------------
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . X . C . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . X O . X . . . . . . . X . . X O . |
$$ | . . W O . . . . . O . . . . . X O O . |
$$ | . X . . . . . . . . . . . . . X X O . |
$$ | . . X O O . . . . . . . . . . X O . . |
$$ | . . O X . . . . . . . . . . . . O . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . , . . . . . , . . . . . , . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . O . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . O . . . . . , . . . . . X . . . |
$$ | . . . . . X . . . . . . . X . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ ---------------------------------------[/go]

I naively figured white would descend at the marked point, above.

Anyway, things were looking bad for me according to KataGo until here:

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[go]$$Bc
$$ ---------------------------------------
$$ | . . X . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . X . X O O . . . . . . . . . . X . . |
$$ | . X X O . X . . . . . . . X . . X O . |
$$ | . X O O . . O . . O . . . . . X O O . |
$$ | . X . . . . . . . . . . . . . X X O . |
$$ | . . X O O . . . . . . . . . . X O . . |
$$ | . . O X . . . . . . . . . O . O O . . |
$$ | . . X . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . , . . . . . , . . . . . , . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . X . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . O . X . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . B . . O . |
$$ | . . O . . . . . . . . . O . O . O . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . X X . |
$$ | . . . O O O . . . , . . . . . X . . . |
$$ | . . O X O X X . . . . . . X . . . . . |
$$ | . . X X X . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ ---------------------------------------[/go]

After that fiasco on the right, my win rate started to rise a lot.

And around here, my win rate is listed around 96%:

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[go]$$Bc
$$ ---------------------------------------
$$ | . . X . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . X . X O O . . O X . . . . . . X . . |
$$ | . X X O . X . . . O X . X X . . X O . |
$$ | . X O O . . O . . O X . O . . X O O . |
$$ | . X . . . . . . . . O . . . . X X O . |
$$ | . . X O O O . . . . . . . . . X O . . |
$$ | . . O X X . . . . . . . . O . O O . . |
$$ | . . X . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . B . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . O X . . . . B , . O . B . , . . . |
$$ | . O . X . . . . O B B . B O O O . . . |
$$ | . O X . . . . . O O B . B O O X . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . O O O X X O . O . |
$$ | . . O . . . . . . O X . O X O O O . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . X X X . X X . |
$$ | . . C O O O . . . , . . . X . X . . . |
$$ | . . O X O X X . . . . . . X . . . . . |
$$ | . . X X X . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ ---------------------------------------[/go]

But then, I arrogantly took the corner with the marked move, ignoring the center group... Which ultimately died.

I think sometimes I feel that, if my group has a tiger's mark shape, it's invincible. But tiger's mouth is not two eyes. Still, it feels invincible.

Maybe I just like tigers, too much.

So in the end, I'd say the overall theme to learn here is: Don't be arrogant

And on that note, in order to humble myself a little bit, I'll share an embarrassing video my family and I made on youtube:
Next time, when I'm getting to full of myself, I'll remember what it's like to wear a yellow wig, look at the board, and try to really figure out for sure... "What's going on?!?"

Played another AYD game today.

Here it is:


I won by 3.5, which is unusual for me - I don't usually have close games like that. Interestingly enough, checking with KataGo, there were a few swings in the endgame.

Per KataGo, I was leading the game, albeit close, until here:

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[go]$$Bc
$$ ---------------------------------------
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . O X X . . . |
$$ | . X . X O X O . . . . . . . O X . . . |
$$ | X . X X X O O . . . . . . O O X X . . |
$$ | . X O O O X O X . , . . . O X O X . . |
$$ | . O . . . X X O O . . . . . X O X . . |
$$ | . . O . . . . . . . . . . . O O . . . |
$$ | . . . . X X X O . O . . O O O X X . . |
$$ | . O O O O . . O . . . . O X X O X . . |
$$ | . X O . O X X X . X O W . . . O X . . |
$$ | . X X O . O O X . , X . . O O , . . . |
$$ | . . X O O O . O X . . . X . . X X X . |
$$ | . X . X X O . O X . . . X O O . O . . |
$$ | . . . X O X O O X . . . . X O X . O . |
$$ | . X X X O X . X . . . . . . X X O . . |
$$ | . O O O O O . . . . . . . . X O . O . |
$$ | . . . O O . . . . , X . . . X O O O . |
$$ | . . . . . O . X . . . . . . . X X X . |
$$ | . . . . . . O X . X . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . O O X . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ ---------------------------------------[/go]

I thought that move was big, but more important was this move on top, which is reverse sente:

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[go]$$Bc
$$ ---------------------------------------
$$ | . . . . . W . . . . . . . O X X . . . |
$$ | . X . X O C O . . . . . . . O X . . . |
$$ | X . X X X O O . . . . . . O O X X . . |
$$ | . X O O O X O X . , . . . O X O X . . |
$$ | . O . . . X X O O . . . . . X O X . . |
$$ | . . O . . . . . . . . . . . O O . . . |
$$ | . . . . X X X O . O . . O O O X X . . |
$$ | . O O O O . . O . . . . O X X O X . . |
$$ | . X O . O X X X . X O . . . . O X . . |
$$ | . X X O . O O X . , X . . O O , . . . |
$$ | . . X O O O . O X . . . X . . X X X . |
$$ | . X . X X O . O X . . . X O O . O . . |
$$ | . . . X O X O O X . . . . X O X . O . |
$$ | . X X X O X . X . . . . . . X X O . . |
$$ | . O O O O O . . . . . . . . X O . O . |
$$ | . . . O O . . . . , X . . . X O O O . |
$$ | . . . . . O . X . . . . . . . X X X . |
$$ | . . . . . . O X . X . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . O O X . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ ---------------------------------------[/go]

If I do that, KataGo says I maintain the lead. But since I played the lower value gote endgame move, black caught up. Additionally, I made a mistake with this capture, which I thought was good:

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[go]$$Bc
$$ ---------------------------------------
$$ | . . . . X . O . . . . . . O X X . . . |
$$ | . X . X . X O . . . . . . . O X . . . |
$$ | X . X X X O O . . . . . . O O X X . . |
$$ | . X O O O X O X . , . . . O X O X . . |
$$ | . O . . . X X O O . . . . . X O X . . |
$$ | . . O . . . . . . . . . . . O O . . . |
$$ | . . . . X X X O . O . . O O O X X . . |
$$ | . O O O O . . O . . . . O X X O X . . |
$$ | . X O . O X X X . X O O . . . O X . . |
$$ | . X X O . O O X . , X X . O O , . . . |
$$ | . . X O O O . O X . . . X . . X X X . |
$$ | . X . X X O . O X . . . X O O . O . . |
$$ | . . . X O C O O X . . . . X O X . O . |
$$ | X X X X O C W X . . . . . . X X O . . |
$$ | X O O O O O . . . . . . . . X O . O . |
$$ | O . . O O . . . . , X . . . X O O O . |
$$ | . O . . . O X X . . . . . . . X X X . |
$$ | . . . . . O O X . X . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . O O X . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ ---------------------------------------[/go]

I figured it was sente capture and good. But KataGo pointed out this better move:

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[go]$$Bc
$$ ---------------------------------------
$$ | . . . . X . O . . . . . . O X X . . . |
$$ | . X . X . X O . . . . . . . O X . . . |
$$ | X . X X X O O . . . . . . O O X X . . |
$$ | . X O O O X O X . , . . . O X O X . . |
$$ | . O . . . X X O O . . . . . X O X . . |
$$ | . . O . . . . . . . . . . . O O . . . |
$$ | . . . . X X X O . O . . O O O X X . . |
$$ | . O O O O . . O . . . . O X X O X . . |
$$ | . X O . O X X X . X O O . . . O X . . |
$$ | . X X O . O O X . , X X . O O , . . . |
$$ | . . X O O O . O X . . . X . . X X X . |
$$ | . X . X X O . O X . . . X O O . O . . |
$$ | . . . X O X O O X . . . . X O X . O . |
$$ | X X X X O X . X . . . . . . X X O . . |
$$ | X O O O O O . W . . . . . . X O . O . |
$$ | O . . O O . . . . , X . . . X O O O . |
$$ | . O . . . O X X . . . . . . . X X X . |
$$ | . . . . . O O X . X . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . O O X . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ ---------------------------------------[/go]

When I didn't play there, KataGo finally put the game in favor of black. That is, until he answered me here:

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[go]$$Bc
$$ ---------------------------------------
$$ | . . . . X . O . . . . . . O X X . . . |
$$ | . X . X . X O . . . . . . . O X . . . |
$$ | X . X X X O O . . . . . . O O X X . . |
$$ | X X O O O X O X . , . . . O X O X . . |
$$ | X O . . . X X O O . . . . . X O X . . |
$$ | O . O . . . . . . . . . . . O O O X . |
$$ | . . . . X X X O . O . . O O O X X . . |
$$ | . O O O O . . O . O . . O . . O X . . |
$$ | . X O . O X X X C X O O . O O O X . . |
$$ | . X X O . O O X . , X X X O O X . B X |
$$ | . . X O O O . O X . . . X . . X X X O |
$$ | . X . X X O . O X . . . X O O X O O O |
$$ | . . . X O . O O X . . . . X O X . O . |
$$ | X X X X O . O X . . . . . . X X O . . |
$$ | X O O O O O . X . . . . . . X O . O . |
$$ | O . . O O . . . . , X . . . X O O O O |
$$ | . O . . . O X X . . . . . . . X X X O |
$$ | . . . . . O O X . X . . . . . . X . X |
$$ | . . . . . . O O X . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ ---------------------------------------[/go]

After white got the marked intersection, white got the lead again, I guess.

So overall, I think this was a close game and it showed that we both had weaknesses in our endgame. I'm glad that I was in a lead when the endgame started, but that small lead went away due to poor endgame. But I got it back, which was lucky for me.

I don't have many close games like this, relatively speaking, and it shows some of my weak points, particularly in evaluating what's biggest.

I'll remember what it's like to wear a yellow wig, look at the board, and try to really figure out for sure... "What's going on?!?"

A yellow wig? This is supposed to be sung by non-blondes.

Haha, yeah... That He-man parody has been around for awhile, and I was always amused by how weird it was. So we decided to make our own rendition. I guess it’s how we deal with being bored during quarantine.

I think the whole thing is a very specific type of humor that isn’t funny to everybody. But somehow, I always laugh.

Last AYD game of the month, against DuguYue, who's a friend of mine I've met in person:



Haven't gotten review from Inseong, yet, but I did a brief rundown using KataGo...

Basically, game was a little even in the opening (I'm a little behind, maybe), but then my win rate started to plummet with the sequence here:

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[go]$$Bc
$$ ---------------------------------------
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . X O . . O . . . . . . . X . . . . . |
$$ | . X X O . . . . . O . . . . . X . . . |
$$ | . X O O . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . X O . . . . . . . . . . . . X . . |
$$ | . . X X . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . O . . |
$$ | . . . X . . . . . , . . . . . , . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . O . . . . . . . . . . . O . . . |
$$ | . . . . O . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . X . . O . . |
$$ | . . X X . . X . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . O , X . . W . , . . . O X X X O . |
$$ | . . . O O O . . . . . . X X O O O O O |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . X O X X X O . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ ---------------------------------------[/go]

KataGo wants me to just jump out with my weak group, which is a simple idea:

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[go]$$Bc
$$ ---------------------------------------
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . X O . . O . . . . . . . X . . . . . |
$$ | . X X O . . . . . O . . . . . X . . . |
$$ | . X O O . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . X O . . . . . . . . . . . . X . . |
$$ | . . X X . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . O . . |
$$ | . . . X . . . . . , . . . . . , . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . O . . . . . . . . . . . O . . . |
$$ | . . . . O . W . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . X . . O . . |
$$ | . . X X . . X . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . O , X . . . . , . . . O X X X O . |
$$ | . . . O O O . . . . . . X X O O O O O |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . X O X X X O . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ ---------------------------------------[/go]

The group is weak, so strengthen it. Why did I play the way I did in the game? Because I was hung up on a very specific sequence:

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[go]$$Wc
$$ ---------------------------------------
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . X O . . O . . . . . . . X . . . . . |
$$ | . X X O . . . . . O . . . . . X . . . |
$$ | . X O O . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . X O . . . . . . . . . . . . X . . |
$$ | . . X X . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . O . . |
$$ | . . . X . . . . . , . . . . . , . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . O . . . . . . . . . . . O . . . |
$$ | . . . . O . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . 4 8 X . . O . . |
$$ | . . X X . . X . . . 6 5 3 . . . . . . |
$$ | . . O , X . . W . , 7 2 1 O X X X O . |
$$ | . . . O O O . . . . . 9 X X O O O O O |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . X O X X X O . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ ---------------------------------------[/go]

And I thought the bottom stone would help me. But even ignoring the left white stones, this sequence isn't even that good, probably. Black gets strength from squeezing white, so it's not like I have some super sequence I'm preparing there.

Anyway, I was way behind for almost the entire game, until DuguYue played here:

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[go]$$Bc
$$ ---------------------------------------
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . X O X O . . . . . . . . X X O . . . |
$$ | . X O X . O X X X X X X . X O X O . . |
$$ | . X X O . O X O O O O O O O O X X . . |
$$ | . X O O . O O O . . . . . . O O X X . |
$$ | . . X O . X X . . . . . . X O X X . . |
$$ | . . X X . . . . . . . . B . X O . . . |
$$ | . . . X X X O . . . . . . . . O . . . |
$$ | . O X . X O X X . . . . . . . . O . . |
$$ | . . O X O O . . . , . . . . . , . . . |
$$ | . O . O . O X . . . . . O O . . . . . |
$$ | . . . O . X X . . . . O X X . O . . . |
$$ | . . . . O . . . . . X O . . . O . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . O . O X X . X O . . |
$$ | . . X X . . X X X O O O . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . O , X . X O O O X O X O X X X O . |
$$ | . . . O O O O X X O X O X X O O O O O |
$$ | . . . . . . . O X X X X X O X X X O . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . X . . . . . . . . |
$$ ---------------------------------------[/go]

That gave me a target to attack, which turned the game around. KataGo immediately says the game is reversed, now.

As a side note, I thought for a little while here, but was stupid with this play, earlier in the game:

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[go]$$Bc
$$ ---------------------------------------
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . X O X O . . . . . . . . . X . . . . |
$$ | . X O X . O X X X X X X . X O . O . . |
$$ | . X X O . O X O O O O O O . W X . . . |
$$ | . X O O . O O O . . . . . . . . . X . |
$$ | . . X O . X X . . . . . . . . . X . . |
$$ | . . X X . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . X X X O . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . O X . X O X X . . . . . . . . O . . |
$$ | . . O X O O . . . , . . . . . , . . . |
$$ | . O . O . O X . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . O . X X . . . . O . . . O . . . |
$$ | . . . . O . . . . . X O . . . O . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . O . O X X . X O . . |
$$ | . . X X . . X X X O O O . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . O , X . X O O O X O X O X X X O . |
$$ | . . . O O O O X X O X O X X O O O O O |
$$ | . . . . . . . O X X X X X O X X X O . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . X . . . . . . . . |
$$ ---------------------------------------[/go]

I guess my reading was foggy. I wanted to play here, but I didn't think it worked:

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[go]$$Bc
$$ ---------------------------------------
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . X O X O . . . . . . . . . X . . . . |
$$ | . X O X . O X X X X X X . X O W O . . |
$$ | . X X O . O X O O O O O O . C X . . . |
$$ | . X O O . O O O . . . . . . . . . X . |
$$ | . . X O . X X . . . . . . . . . X . . |
$$ | . . X X . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . X X X O . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . O X . X O X X . . . . . . . . O . . |
$$ | . . O X O O . . . , . . . . . , . . . |
$$ | . O . O . O X . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . O . X X . . . . O . . . O . . . |
$$ | . . . . O . . . . . X O . . . O . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . O . O X X . X O . . |
$$ | . . X X . . X X X O O O . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . O , X . X O O O X O X O X X X O . |
$$ | . . . O O O O X X O X O X X O O O O O |
$$ | . . . . . . . O X X X X X O X X X O . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . X . . . . . . . . |
$$ ---------------------------------------[/go]

I was afraid of black's block on top. But I was thinking too linearly:

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[go]$$Bc
$$ ---------------------------------------
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . X O X O . . . . . . . 2 . X . . . . |
$$ | . X O X . O X X X X X X . X O O O . . |
$$ | . X X O . O X O O O O O O . 1 X . . . |
$$ | . X O O . O O O . . . . . . . . . X . |
$$ | . . X O . X X . . . . . . . . . X . . |
$$ | . . X X . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . X X X O . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . O X . X O X X . . . . . . . . O . . |
$$ | . . O X O O . . . , . . . . . , . . . |
$$ | . O . O . O X . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . O . X X . . . . O . . . O . . . |
$$ | . . . . O . . . . . X O . . . O . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . O . O X X . X O . . |
$$ | . . X X . . X X X O O O . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . O , X . X O O O X O X O X X X O . |
$$ | . . . O O O O X X O X O X X O O O O O |
$$ | . . . . . . . O X X X X X O X X X O . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . X . . . . . . . . |
$$ ---------------------------------------[/go]

Since that move works, there's no real problem here. I didn't let it run too long, but I think that was another *potential* turning point in the game.

So my opponent gave me at least two big chances after I fell way behind. I struck out on the first pitch, but made a hit on the second, so I guess that's what brought me the win.

Long time no see. I quit the forum for awhile - a few months back? I don't even remember.

I've been too busy at work. I put in a lot of hours, and sometimes stay up late - last Monday/Tuesday, I stayed up working on something until about 3am. I finished it, but I don't think it was worth it. I've been trying to balance my time outside of work a little better.

Outside of work, I started trying to learn the ukulele. It was cheaper to buy than a guitar, and I didn't know I'd be committed to learning. I play with it now and then.

What I haven't been doing is studying go. Except for my AYD games. Every Tuesday, I play a game of go. I don't go to Inseong's lectures, I don't review, and I don't do go problems. So that's my life now. Mostly work. Some family time. Some ukulele. I guess I exercise, too.

But a weird thing has been happening. I've been having a winning streak. Maybe it's a fluke - maybe now that I mentioned it, I'll stop winning. But whatever the case, I've won the last 7 games in the AYD. I don't really know why.

There's one thing I've been doing differently than before. And as weird as it is to say it, it's "not caring". Before, I'd get somewhat tense before games - get all uptight, and try to play the best move. Maybe it's rude to say it, but these days, during the opening, I just watch YouTube. I'm not trying to be rude to my opponent or anything. It's just that I'm exhausted from work, and playing a game of go each week kind of gives me a break.

Weirdly enough, it seems to help my games. Maybe it's just a coincidence. Anyway, I usually start watching YouTube (some random recommendation), and play through the opening of the game. After 20 or 30 moves, it starts to get complicated, and I feel inclined to pause YouTube and start thinking. Then I go.

I'm sure I've gotten lucky at times. But anyway, it's weird that this is the only variable that seems to be different in my games.

As a result, I've achieved the highest AYD game I ever have in all of the years I've played in the AYD: And I won several games. Here are the games from my streak.
I'm sure there are lots of mistakes in these games. And my opponents probably had lots of chances to win. I actually couldn't really tell you, because I never bother to review games these days.

But anyway, since it's such a weird experience for me, I decided to share.

I guess I'll go watch YouTube more.

Welcome back Kirby!

Unfortunately, now that you have started thinking about your streak enough to post it here, you have stopped "not caring". I predict that your streak will end now. But no worries! You can post about the end of your streak too. I'll look forward to it.

Does saying that you stopped caring means that you stopped not caring?