Bill, I agonised over that bulge at . I didn't see your other those large jumps are a blind spot of mine, I rarely consider them. Currently I've noticed myself making this mistake though of leaving a local situation to approach a corner but ending up with a worse result (in my view) than if I play a local move and my opponent closes the corner. One of many things to work on I guess.

Good. You considered it. That's the most important thing at the kyu level. If you always consider the right play, it is hard not to be SDK, just by the law of averages.



Think of it as a boshi. Attack!



Urgent points before big points.

It's a Zen kind of thing. Beginners often continue playing in a local area after the local temperature has dropped. Then they learn to tenuki. Then they have to learn when not to tenuki, because the local area is urgent. Mountains are again mountains.

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Visualize whirled peas.

Everything with love. Stay safe.

Most of my issue with those large jumps as attacks is a vicious circle. Because I don't play them often I can't read them quickly compared to moves I'm more familiar with. Because I can't read them out as easily my instincts are to play other moves instead.

I'm trying to combat this by forcing myself to play large knights and similar where I can't clearly see a reason not to (which usually exists, I'm just blind to it). We'll see how this goes.

Not a loss but my first finished game with long time limits against someone near my strength (EGF wise) since my long absence from the game:



Any thoughts welcome.

Hi Boidhre, welcome back. This opponent was... not very good.

Myself and a tipsy topazg:



Neither of us in optimal form by a long shot but an interesting game for me nonetheless. (4k? with a big ? by the way, I haven't had a solid KGS rank in well over a year)

Random thoughts.

Thanks Ed. Several of those bad moves were of the "thought I saw something working" kind unfortunately.

For extra credit, what is the score?

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The Adkins Principle:
At some point, doesn't thinking have to go on?
— Winona Adkins

Visualize whirled peas.

Everything with love. Stay safe.

W+14.5? White owes a move inside after Black T19 and dame being filled. I think the black group on top is ok.

I've a feeling from your choice of smilie that I'm missing something huge here.

Right. White has to protect.

I was just surprised that you both missed that.

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The Adkins Principle:
At some point, doesn't thinking have to go on?
— Winona Adkins

Visualize whirled peas.

Everything with love. Stay safe.

Someone's wife was annoyed with someone playing go so the very late yose was rather rushed.

So I've neglected this journal and go almost totally over the last year. This was primarily due to ill-health, I've been depressed, manic and mixed most of the last 12 months and whatever sleep disorder I have has worsened considerably and my sleep became free running (as in going around the clock, almost always in the same direction) on top of the sleep disruption from the bipolar. I'm getting the sleep disorder looked at in my country's only sleep clinic that handles non-aponea cases, which means journeying to Dublin constantly. Also as an added (but welcome) stressor my wife got a Post-Doctorate position, the problem is that it's a 3 hour commute away and this means several days of the week I've sole care of the children (who are school/preschool age). The care bit is fine, the having to be fully alert and awake for certain at particular times of the day doesn't mix well with the free running sleep so that means 1-2 hours or no sleep many nights which of course aggravates the bipolar that isn't fully controlled because I'm not that responsive to medication.

I was amused when my psychiatrist said to me that she hoped I had sleep aponea (I'm a candidate for it due to a narrow airway though it wouldn't cause free running sleep) because that at least is something they could treat and somewhere they could pretty much guarantee me an improvement in quality of life. It's not a good sign when your doctors are wishing conditions on you!

Hi Boidhre, post-doc in which field ?

PM sent. Tiny world, she wouldn't like me talking about it publicly.

Long depressions followed by much messing around with other health stuff (they keep finding new things, sleep aponea and non-24 hour sleep wake disorder as well now ). I'm hoping to get back playing go but mostly I just wanted to say hello to people and to apologise for my absence.

I finally kept my promise above and got an over-the-board game in. I think it's been a year since my last game or something like that. I've started a couple of turn based games but have only been playing in them the last few days. I met up with Tom for a game and honestly neither of us are in particularly good shape at the moment, he's not playing that well and I've an ever present fever and other crap to deal with (probable autoimmune thing going on) so the game was rather messy. The endgame is out of order, I messed up the recording. Our chat afterwards was mostly about the what ifs of me not misreading the cut in the top left and if I'd seen what Tom thought was a killing sequence in the bottom right along with if I'd handled the top right much better where I essentially collapsed. My play is a bit all over the place, I think I'm playing some strange moves, but experimentation is good I guess.

This looks, for lack of a better way to put it, like the game of someone who knew what he was doing at one point but is missing the finer details for lack of practice.

The game felt wrong midway during the midgame. It's been a long time etc.

Hi Boidhre,

P5: lots of vars to study; enjoy.

C10 local shared vital point.

were you keeping an eye on W's o12 group ? For example: K12 cap.

The game up to here, I thought you did well, esp. after such a long break.