Surprisingly my win-rate against doge_bot_2 has drastically improved as I started to play ranked games. While I'm not quite at 50% against it yet, I'm winning a lot more than the 25% that I had initially projected, and OGS is giving me a rank at 2k based on mostly doge_bot_2 games.
Today I played my old "rival" Spectral-1k again, and I made one of those out-right blunders. It's a shame because I thought I actually played pretty well up until that point.
(;FF[4]
CA[UTF-8]
GM[1]
DT[2020-09-25]
PC[OGS: https://online-go.com/game/27156881]
GN[Friendly Match]
PB[Spectral-1k]
PW[feiqi__]
BR[1d]
WR[2k]
TM[7200]OT[5x30 byo-yomi]
RE[B+R]
SZ[19]
KM[7.5]
RU[Chinese]
C[Spectral-1k: Hi! This bot is intended to play human-like games at any kyu rank, running on minimal hardware. Type "options" for more information. Good luck!
Spectral-1k: Thanks for the game! Always looking to improve, so feel free to message me with any problems, observations, or suggestions.
]
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(;W[qp]
(;B[cd]
(;W[dp]
(;B[fd]
(;W[qf]
(;B[nc]
(;W[qd]
(;B[qc]
(;W[rc]
(;B[qe]
(;W[rd]
(;B[pe]
(;W[re]
(;B[qb]
(;W[pf]
(;B[rg]
(;W[qh]
(;B[rh]
(;W[pc]
(;B[pb]
(;W[qj]
(;B[qg]
(;W[od]
(;B[oe]
(;W[ph]
(;B[rj]
(;W[ri]
(;B[si]
(;W[qi]
(;B[rk]
(;W[qk]
(;B[ql]
(;W[rf]
(;B[rm]
(;W[qn]
(;B[pl]
(;W[on]
(;B[nl]
(;W[nj]
(;B[ll]
(;W[sj]
(;B[sk]
(;W[lo]
(;B[lq]
(;W[np]
(;B[nr]
(;W[oq]
(;B[or]
(;W[pr]
(;B[iq]
(;W[lj]
(;B[jl]
(;W[kp]
(;B[kq]
(;W[ip]
(;B[hq]
(;W[ol]
(;B[om]
(;W[ok]
(;B[pm]
(;W[nm]
(;B[nn]
(;W[mm]
(;B[pn]
(;W[oo]
(;B[qo]
(;W[ro]
(;B[po]
(;W[rn]
(;B[pp]
(;W[pq]
(;B[op]
(;W[no]
(;B[qq]
(;W[rp]
(;B[qr]
(;W[nq]
(;B[ps]
(;W[rr]
(;B[mq]
(;W[rq]
(;B[qs]
(;W[os]
(;B[ns]
(;W[rs]
(;B[mo]
(;W[ln]
(;B[mp]
)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

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I still remember my thought process at this point:
1. Wow my key stones are in atari, I better capture at either N6 or P1.
2. Okay I will capture at N6. But wait... if I capture at N6 wouldn't my M5 stones get cut.
3. Okay but so what? I can probably just sacrifice M5 stones anyway. After all I had just won a huge battle on the right side. Black is supposed to get at least a little bit of compensation for losing a big group...
4. Is there way to make sure that M5 remains connected? Oh I see if I play at M6 I can create a connect-and-die shape. How neat!
5. But wait, why do I even care if black cuts off M5, isn't this game already over anyway? Just play N6 to capture!
6. But if I could connect and save M5 so easily, then why not?
7. Okay I will play at M6.
8. OHHH OOPS WHY DID MY STONES DISAPPEAR
So I was debating with myself whether it is acceptable to give up on M5 stones completely, I started to forget the very first point- that my stones are in atari.
While I don't make these types of blunders too frequently, I do wonder if I get stronger these blunders will just disappear. But then I came to the realization that even when I was a high school student I could not find a way to eradicate those simple careless errors from those easy trigonometry/calculus exams (despite the fact that I was capable of solving more difficult problems in math contests). I should just accept that such mistakes will happen occasionally and move on.