A couple of points that stand out:
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[go]$$Bc
$$ ---------------------------------------
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . O . . . . . |
$$ | . . X O . . . . . . . . . . . O O . . |
$$ | . . X O . . . . . , . . . . X X X . . |
$$ | . . . O . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . X . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . O . . . . . , . . . . . , . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . O . X . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . X O . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . O O O X . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . O X X O X X O . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . X . , X O X O . , . . . . . , . . . |
$$ | . X X X X O O X X X . . . . . X . . . |
$$ | . . . . O X O O O . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . B . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ ---------------------------------------[/go]
Since I am not going to kill the group anyway, this is kind of unnecessary. So I should probably just turn to force:

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[go]$$Bc
$$ ---------------------------------------
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . O . . . . . |
$$ | . . X O . . . . . . . . . . . O O . . |
$$ | . . X O . . . . . , . . . . X X X . . |
$$ | . . . O . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . X . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . O . . . . . , . . . . . , . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . O . X . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . X O . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . O O O X . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . O X X O X X O . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . X . , X O X O . , . . . . . , . . . |
$$ | . X X X X O O X X X . . . . . X . . . |
$$ | . . . . O X O O O B . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ ---------------------------------------[/go]
I heard from a commentator that maybe it's not worth it to cut:

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[go]$$Bc
$$ ---------------------------------------
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . O . . O O X |
$$ | . . X O . . . . . . . . O . . O O X . |
$$ | . . X O . . . . X , . . . . X X X . . |
$$ | . . . O . . . . . . . . . . . . . X . |
$$ | . X X O . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . O B . . . . . . . . . . . X . . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . X O . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . X O O . . |
$$ | . . . O . . . . . , . . . . . X O . . |
$$ | . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . O . . |
$$ | . . . O . X . . . . . . . . O . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . X O . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . O O O X . X . . . . . . . . X . . |
$$ | . O X X O X X O . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . X . , X O X O . , . . . . . , . . . |
$$ | . X X X X O O X X X X X . . . X . . . |
$$ | . . . . O X O O O O O . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . O X . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ ---------------------------------------[/go]
He's a bit stronger than me, so I'll compare our thought processes.
Not a real quote wrote:
Me: "Hmm. Should I cut?... CAN I cut? Will I die? I don't think so... OK, let's GO!"
Him: "Hmm. Do I NEED to cut? Black seems ahead here. So let's not make things uncertain, and just take points."
It's interesting to contrast these different ways of thinking. I'm definitely prone to thinking the way I did in the game. And of course, it introduces risk into the game and gives my opponent the chance to make a comeback. It introduces risk.
His way, on the other hand, is more stable. More likely to win... So why don't I do that?
I think the answer is primarily: I am not confident in my ability to assess the game. I don't vary moves much in terms of "am I ahead" or "is he ahead". Rather, I play with the same mindset throughout the game: Does my aggressive move work? If the answer isn't a clear NO, then I go for it...
The solution, I suppose, is a better ability to assess the game. I *do* perform a rough count. But it's difficult to get a feeling for thickness, etc., to be confident in the outcome in many cases.
The other point is this part:
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[go]$$Bc
$$ ---------------------------------------
$$ | . X . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . X O O . . . . . . . . . O . . O O X |
$$ | . . X O . . . O O X . . O . . O O X . |
$$ | . . X O . . O . X X . . . . X X X . . |
$$ | . . . O . . O X . . . . . . . . . X . |
$$ | . X X O . . O . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . O X X . . X . . . . . . . X . . . |
$$ | . . O . . . . . . . . . . . W X O . . |
$$ | . . O X . X . . . . . . . . X O O . . |
$$ | . . . O X . . . . , . . . . . X O . . |
$$ | . . . O . . . . . . . . . . . . O . . |
$$ | . . . O . X . . . . . . . . O . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . X O . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . O O O X . X . . . . . . . . X . . |
$$ | . O X X O X X O . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . X . , X O X O . , . . . . . , . . . |
$$ | . X X X X O O X X X X X . . . X . . . |
$$ | . . . . O X O O O O O . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . O X . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ ---------------------------------------[/go]
Without thinking, I ataried:
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[go]$$Bc
$$ ---------------------------------------
$$ | . X . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . X O O . . . . . . . . . O . . O O X |
$$ | . . X O . . . O O X . . O . . O O X . |
$$ | . . X O . . O . X X . . . . X X X . . |
$$ | . . . O . . O X . . . . . . . . . X . |
$$ | . X X O . . O . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . O X X . . X . . . . . . . X . . . |
$$ | . . O . . . . . . . . . . B O X O . . |
$$ | . . O X . X . . . . . . . . X O O . . |
$$ | . . . O X . . . . , . . . . . X O . . |
$$ | . . . O . . . . . . . . . . . . O . . |
$$ | . . . O . X . . . . . . . . O . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . X O . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . O O O X . X . . . . . . . . X . . |
$$ | . O X X O X X O . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . X . , X O X O . , . . . . . , . . . |
$$ | . X X X X O O X X X X X . . . X . . . |
$$ | . . . . O X O O O O O . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . O X . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ ---------------------------------------[/go]
Of course, the ladder doesn't work. White may have various options, but at least one occurred to me during the game:

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[go]$$Bc
$$ ---------------------------------------
$$ | . X . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . X O O . . . . . . . . . O . . O O X |
$$ | . . X O . . . O O X . . O . . O O X . |
$$ | . . X O . . O . X X . . . . X X X . . |
$$ | . . . O . . O X . . . . . . . . . X . |
$$ | . X X O . . O . . . . . . . O W . . . |
$$ | . . O X X . . X . . . . . X O X . . . |
$$ | . . O . . . . . . . . . . X O X O . . |
$$ | . . O X . X . . . . . . . X X O O . . |
$$ | . . . O X . . . . , . . . . . X O . . |
$$ | . . . O . . . . . . . . . . . . O . . |
$$ | . . . O . X . . . . . . . . O . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . X O . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . O O O X . X . . . . . . . . X . . |
$$ | . O X X O X X O . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . X . , X O X O . , . . . . . , . . . |
$$ | . X X X X O O X X X X X . . . X . . . |
$$ | . . . . O X O O O O O . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . O X . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ ---------------------------------------[/go]
instead of this, white can AT LEAST net:

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[go]$$Bc
$$ ---------------------------------------
$$ | . X . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . X O O . . . . . . . . . O . . O O X |
$$ | . . X O . . . O O X . . O . . O O X . |
$$ | . . X O . . O . X X . . . . X X X . . |
$$ | . . . O . . O X . . . . . . . . . X . |
$$ | . X X O . . O . . . . . . . O . W . . |
$$ | . . O X X . . X . . . . . X O X . . . |
$$ | . . O . . . . . . . . . . X O X O . . |
$$ | . . O X . X . . . . . . . X X O O . . |
$$ | . . . O X . . . . , . . . . . X O . . |
$$ | . . . O . . . . . . . . . . . . O . . |
$$ | . . . O . X . . . . . . . . O . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . X O . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . O O O X . X . . . . . . . . X . . |
$$ | . O X X O X X O . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . X . , X O X O . , . . . . . , . . . |
$$ | . X X X X O O X X X X X . . . X . . . |
$$ | . . . . O X O O O O O . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . O X . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ ---------------------------------------[/go]
Oh yeah. And I misread this:
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[go]$$Bc
$$ ---------------------------------------
$$ | . X . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . X O O . . . . . . . . . O . . O O X |
$$ | . . X O . . . O O X . . O . . O O X . |
$$ | . . X O . . O . X X . . . X X X X . . |
$$ | . . . O . . O X . . . O . O . . . X . |
$$ | . X X O . . O O X X . . . X O O O O X |
$$ | . . O X X . . X O . . . . X O X X X . |
$$ | . . O . . . . B O . . . . X O X O . . |
$$ | . . O X . X . . . . . . . X X O O . . |
$$ | . . . O X . . . . , . . . . . X O . . |
$$ | . . . O . . . . . . . . . . . . O . . |
$$ | . . . O . X . . . . . . . . O . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . X O . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . O O O X . X . . . . . . . . X . . |
$$ | . O X X O X X O . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . X . , X O X O . , . . . . . , . . . |
$$ | . X X X X O O X X X X X . . . X . . . |
$$ | . . . . O X O O O O O . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . O X . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ ---------------------------------------[/go]
After his hane, it's dangerous:
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[go]$$Bc
$$ ---------------------------------------
$$ | . X . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . X O O . . . . . . . . . O . . O O X |
$$ | . . X O . . . O O X . . O . . O O X . |
$$ | . . X O . . O . X X . . . X X X X . . |
$$ | . . . O . . O X . . . O . O . . . X . |
$$ | . X X O . . O O X X . . . X O O O O X |
$$ | . . O X X 1 . X O . 2 . . X O X X X . |
$$ | . . O . . . . X O . . . . X O X O . . |
$$ | . . O X . X . W . . . . . X X O O . . |
$$ | . . . O X . . . . , . . . . . X O . . |
$$ | . . . O . . . . . . . . . . . . O . . |
$$ | . . . O . X . . . . . . . . O . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . X O . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . O O O X . X . . . . . . . . X . . |
$$ | . O X X O X X O . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . X . , X O X O . , . . . . . , . . . |
$$ | . X X X X O O X X X X X . . . X . . . |
$$ | . . . . O X O O O O O . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . O X . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ ---------------------------------------[/go]
A commentator pointed out that this might kill, locally:

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[go]$$Bc
$$ ---------------------------------------
$$ | . X . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . X O O . . . . . . . B . O . . O O X |
$$ | . . X O . . . O O X . . O . . O O X . |
$$ | . . X O . . O . X X . . . X X X X . . |
$$ | . . . O . . O X . . . O . O . . . X . |
$$ | . X X O . . O O X X . . . X O O O O X |
$$ | . . O X X . . X O . . . . X O X X X . |
$$ | . . O . . . . . O . . . . X O X O . . |
$$ | . . O X . X . . . . . . . X X O O . . |
$$ | . . . O X . . . . , . . . . . X O . . |
$$ | . . . O . . . . . . . . . . . . O . . |
$$ | . . . O . X . . . . . . . . O . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . X O . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . O O O X . X . . . . . . . . X . . |
$$ | . O X X O X X O . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . X . , X O X O . , . . . . . , . . . |
$$ | . X X X X O O X X X X X . . . X . . . |
$$ | . . . . O X O O O O O . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . O X . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ ---------------------------------------[/go]
Therefore, if I escape with my group first, white should respond. THEN I can move out:

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[go]$$Bc
$$ ---------------------------------------
$$ | . X . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . X O O . . . . . . . 2 . O . . O O X |
$$ | . . X O . . . O O X . . O . . O O X . |
$$ | . . X O . . O . X X . . . X X X X . . |
$$ | . . . O . . O X . . . O . O . . . X . |
$$ | . X X O . . O O X X . . . X O O O O X |
$$ | . . O X X . . X O . 1 . . X O X X X . |
$$ | . . O . . . . X O . . . . X O X O . . |
$$ | . . O X . X . 3 . . . . . X X O O . . |
$$ | . . . O X . . . . , . . . . . X O . . |
$$ | . . . O . . . . . . . . . . . . O . . |
$$ | . . . O . X . . . . . . . . O . . . . |
$$ | . . . . . X O . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . O O O X . X . . . . . . . . X . . |
$$ | . O X X O X X O . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . X . , X O X O . , . . . . . , . . . |
$$ | . X X X X O O X X X X X . . . X . . . |
$$ | . . . . O X O O O O O . . . . . . . . |
$$ | . . . . O X . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
$$ ---------------------------------------[/go]
Overall, the game is a little sloppy. So I have to tune up my reading more and do more problems before this Saturday.
Psychologically, I should try to have more confidence in my ability to assess the game - consider playing moves for points that have low risk...
That's really hard for me to do, though.