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Games from the London Open

Finally, here are my games from the London open last month. Two (or maybe one and a quarter, I should say) in this post, two in the next hopefully!

The first game was actually in round two, in which I began a failed attempt at recording the game using coordinates on lined paper, not wanting to have to rely on unimpressive memory to create the records. I managed about 7 moves.



My I thought (hoped) that this game may not be too embarrassing :), so we were privileged with having our game reviewed by Taranu Sensei. I sat sideways to the board, black mainly replaying the game. What was interesting was that, sitting from the perspective of the side of the go board rather than as one of the players in addition to insightful commentary, a small type of revelation occurred in which I saw white was consistently addicted to one reoccurring habit; here are the notes I can remember (it's possible that I've forgotten one or two).

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Despite being nearly two months, I thought it would be good to post my remaining two games of the London open.
One thing that was also apparent from the last game was that white almost seemed to try to imitate "pro" technique in a funny, misguided way-- I hadn't realised until then, that I may have be doing this for months and ending up with crazy games because of it. And it had seemed for the period of time leading up to the London open, my strength almost disappeared, my go being somehow lost.

After receiving something on the part of a revelation regarding habitual overplays, (however I recall being told similar before on L19, thinking about it) I went into the next game hoping to be less melodramatic in every move. I even thought I may have done so after the game; however, I once again plucked up the courage to have a pro review, and found more...

At the end of the second day, Taranu 5p gave a great lecture on opening theory, focused more so towards general direction of play, and feeling. While these were natural for even beginners to grasp, he noted that applying these concepts can often prove more challenging than expected!

I decided that I might be better to simply write down the black (my) moves instead, to save time. The last time I used an actual recording sheet, I failed to use it properly and thought it would be easier to write down the coordinates-- but that hasn't been completely easy during a game when you haven't practised it a lot. In fact, for some reason, I somehow thought this game would be easy to recall from memory compared the other games I'd played after we'd played the first few moves -- I may not need the sheet! Well, for reasons I can't explain, my brain went blank and it turned out to be the opposite case, which was slightly awkward when taking a long time reading shorthand of moves with the wrong numbering every now and then during the review session, somehow not able to remember even the first few moves, and struggling to guess the white move afterwards.



So, Now having little to lose at this point (3 straight defeats!), here is the last game.
yet it also seemed paramount to play a "good game"-- something that would be nice to look at when going over the record. Here goes.


Something that was too impressive to go unmentioned, however, was the fact that 2d Sandy Taylor had defeated both the runner up and winner of the tournament-- of whom the opening of deciding game between them was reviewed, by Taranu 5p :).
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6 years and 7 months since the last The Way to Blackbelt Post

So, I have to admit that it has been a small while since the last post on my study Journal. There is a reason for that. This post would be a small but important revelation, so to speak.

Brief yet long overview of Go Journey, Second Try

Started playing Go in maybe October 2011, after my younger brother discovered the Hikaru no Go GBA ROM seemingly at random, well actually I'm guilty of conservatism. When I was young my dad had to make me get a phone that was different to the one I had before. My brother on the other hand was always the opposite and open to trying new things, and thanks to that go is in my life, so I've been low-key grateful to him all these years but am too shy to say..

First was playing the HnG GBA opponents (a brilliant way to introduce kids into go) and watched show. After a small while downloaded a few go programs. I mainly played Gnugo, Feugo and Aya, but was hesitant to play on-line until April, when I played a few games and found I was around 13 kyu (after a 3k resigned for no reason against me, and I lost all the way to 13k :lol: until I got upset thought I was 20k, and then badly beat one in an even game and felt guilty afterwards). I even tried to make an insei league with bots, and I would treat different levels of Aya and Dariush each as a player, so there were about 10 to 15 players in two leagues, with me included as a player and maybe even attempting to get my siblings involved And I'd try to. . . play every game out between them in full because I wasn't able to set up interfaces to get any of them to play each other themselves. Of course it wouldn't work out, haha
I would look up to and admire the high kyu players, but never thought I'd be one ;-) .

I also would attempt the tsumego on the Hitachi website, but failed half the elementary problems and solving an intermediate was so uncommon that success called for jumping up and down.

I discovered many great Go websites, like GoGameGuru, which made me a fan of commented go games, and learngo.co.uk, and more.

Most of my beginner games, 100+, were saved and many were commented, but I lost the hard drive and need to find it to retrieve them. Didn't play on KGS for a while until late 2013, were I was surprised to find I was about 9k, but then after quickly rising to 6k, I dropped back down to 7k and stayed around there for a year. I've never usually had the chance to play a lot of go, so spend more time studying Go. I made an IGS account in October 2013. I then participated in the Milton Keynes Go tournament, travelling 90 miles, but I would have never dreamed of playing in a go tournament two years ago, as I wasn't used to socializing or doing any events, but I took he challenge, and I'm glad I did :) http://britgo.org/results/2014/mk Of course I was the online player the kind lady I was playing had to remind to press their clock! However I regret telling my father when someone said I'm stronger than 8 kyu in a way that may be perceived as braggadocious. I was probably trying to impress him to show I'm achieving something with this, but I should be the kid in Karate kid whos regurgitates extreme situations call for extreme measures. Likewise onee time I was playing a double digit player online and implied to my father essentially that the player was no big deal, and then immedieately regretted it because I knew I was losing but was in denail and then I lost. Those are the only two times I did anything like that but it's still cringe.

Now I seem to be improving again after being brave enough to try gtl, and because I don't have mobile access to tsumego, and because direction of play and feel for go is my biggest difficulty, for the past 9 months I would play through pro games commented or uncommented, and Top european players games, commented or uncommented. It's especially exiting to download games from international tournaments like the haunglongshi, LG, Quilong, or my favourite Samsung cup, and replay games of amateurs verses top pros. I even joined the gtl as a reviewer! Although I might have been the person to accidently kill GTL. I felt even more guilty about it early on Go, with the help of family, has definitely changed me a little.

I made a new account on KGS, after not playing for a short while, and found that I was KGS 4kyu. I remind myself however, that it's just a number in front of a name to measure something that can't really be measured.

Now I aim to get to 1 Dan KGS, (preferably 3 Dan), and I need help. I also want to give back to the Go community by helping weaker players. Hence this Journal ;). Commented games mostly played by me would be be here for weaker players to learn and stronger players to criticize my moves. You could also post games here for me and others to comment them :).

This has turned out to be a longer post than expected :shock: .

Next, I'll post on the Go situation in Britain.

. . .

Of course blackbelt can refer to one dan. But in my go belts system, the black belts all have colour stripes in them until you reach 7 dan, the true 'blackbelt'. So in reality the aim of my study journal was to reach EGF 7 in the far future, pro strength. In any case, the point of the journal is actually the concept of being able understand something at multiple levels of meaning*. I think perhaps that is the true meaning of go, since the simplicity of the rules enables represents having multiple levels of complexity with a simple surface, like life itself. The real reason why I've wanted to become stronger at go isn't to do with personal achievements. I just thought if I did well at go and won things it would inspire my siblings to play go too. AND it would be a good image on the go world. I have a tendency to base my goals on what I think society most needs. I believed my maximum potential, strength, if I was born in Asia and trained in go by pros since a toddler, was about he level of top female pros, so those are who I compared myself to.

NOW, the main reason I haven't posted in a while is that after the 2015 London Open, I started getting the effects of schizophrenia. When I went to the 2017 London Open, there wasn't any point going again since my schizophrenia meant I can't really enjoy things like I use too due to the negative effects of schizophrenia. It also it means my EGF 5 dan by November 11th, 2019 goal went out the window. My communication and writing skills suffered. For reasons I don't understand since I'm a germaphobe, during this time when I caught the common varicella I ended up with benign lymphoma. Fortunately it didn't affect me in any way, so I thought my energy drops whenever I consumed high-glycemic index food was the only only thing to worry about . . .

. . . Until 2019, because in around 2019, things somehow got worse, as I believe there sprang up a virus that has effected the natural world throughout the world, changing food in certain ways. However, that alone wouldn't affect me too badly. BUT I was unlucky enough so that it just happens that if you have even a begin lymphoma, and you have non-organic food, especially those with lectins in it, it would reduce some other your bodies normal functions including messing up your prefrontal cortex, and make your schizophrenia even worse. It's powerful enough to even stop my energy-drop reaction to high-glycemic index foods completely, but it also stops others brain functions and really affects my personality in a negative way. My communication and writing skills suffered even more, which is part of why I started using the pronoun I more, although that's also down to when I read a 3rd edition remake of Ernest Gowers Plain Words and felt called out for always avoiding using the pronoun I out of politeness. Other than than I find obsession with pronouns silly since they're a fundamentally stupid concept, especially when more than one exists. By definition of what a pronoun is, there should be only one pronoun used for everything if you are to have a pronoun. Let's just say I learnt Schizophrenia, OCD, anxiety and even depression are related in a way not properly understood by mainstream 'psychologists', fortunately I never had traditional anxiety and only milder depression but I can understand how they relate to Schizophrenia and OCD. In fact the reason I haven't just fasted and soled the problem up till now is that I'm anxious about not understanding how this mysterious illness is affecting my brain, but after three years I finally understood while watching しゅごキャラ! to , with my youngest sibling although without permission. The answer turns out to be ridiculous and embarrassing, why am I not surprised. O my mind is imagining me only in possible terms of what I could be imitating, and two, around the same time I learned go I also decided I will never be the one to propose, since I thought it was sexist to expect the male to take initiative. Yep, that's the way I thought then, but somehow it's had an effect on my brain regarding this illness? By essentially imagining the initiative of my 'heart' my go jumped back up from OGS 9 kyu level to OGS 6 kyu level in a day, and it didn't hurt my brain to think anymore For some people funerals are appropriate, but my personality doesn't match moping about me, so since Shugo Chara Doki is what helped solve my big issue, I'll say play their songs at my funeral to incentivise not holding a funeral for me.

This is my highest level yet. Okay, I'm actually less intelligent than when I was 12, and not par for par in age, I mean in absolute terms. BUT, when I was a kid, there was one thing holding me back. You see, I am naturally a kind of person that when I see an expert, I take them as an oracle. The problem is, ironically, that my learning style requires me to think for my self and understanding things on a fundamental level. I hate just memorising without understanding. In fact, while there are people with an active central brain region, I'm the opposite, and have a bad memory because my brain automatically screens everything before it enters my brain. This makes make less vulnerable to fake news compared to most people, but it does make me prone to being an absolute fanboy and mean that if I think I shouldn't bother hoping I can understand anything in go if a pro doesn't tell me directly I can't learn anything. I tried to counter that attitude with the nongshim cup commentaries, I guess, but to no avail. However, than changed with AI--well not really. When AI initially came out in 2016, I was very interested in AI matches between pros, but willfully decided to ignore AI variations and play openings the old way. In short, I was in the traditionalist camp. Yet ironically, the AI style of play was more in line with what I could naturally understand compared to human pros, if only I payed attention. An example I've mentioned before was that I couldn't for the life of me understand why 3-3 invasions couldn't be played early. Settling the position early in that way didn't seem problematic since you still have sente. Recently I've realised I might have a knack for learning from AI in a way different to most others. I don't use AI programs, which almost a complete reversal of when I started go and relied mostly on computer programs, but I'll pull a Shibano and let other people do the work and I'll look at the variations.

1-I'll try to commentate my games with beginners in mind, so they can appreciate go WITHOUT having to necessarily become stronger themselves, while at the same time if I'm blessed to have a stronger player distilled to me a few of their observations, I'm truly grateful when that occurs.

2-I'm devising a theory of personality more nuanced than the simplistic approach of mainstream psychology were scientists seem to be more concerned about propping up there ego and name rather than actual psychology. Indeed I study meta-psychology or maybe logology focusing on psychology, psychologology--the psychology of professional psychology. I don't rate most of the field that much, though. In any case, energy-wise I am an introvert. However when I was younger I always preferred multiplayer games to two-player games. This is because the vertical folding of my prefrontal cortex makes me very interested in complex interactions between multiple peoples competencies, which my brain sees as a more honest representation of a person than there sociopolitical expressions, which by definition of it's meta nature lends itself to being represented dishonestly, however if your prefrontal cortex accumulates in the opposite direction, then this is what your into maybe, and you have the ability t discern the fake from the real. If you have both, your on another level. Anyway, what it means is to me, the very best thing about being stronger. I'm a natural journalist, and the absolute best way to witness history is to be a part of history. So the best way to satisfy my desire to follow the scene o pro-level players is to become a pro-level player myself! Especially being able to understand pro games without commentary. That's the real personal reason

In my concept of a rating system, a performance 1 dan is about between 3 and 4 EGF dan. Unfortunately, it's too late too try to reach pro level strength, but I can aim for this. But I'm still going to compare my to the standard of two stones from the fourth best human player.

Oh, and because I'm comparing myself to 서봉수 level, feel free to criticize my moves :tmbup: be as severe as you have to.

Yes I am super nostalgic about everything and prone to hoarding while simultaneously being a germaphobe. Although dogs might think I'm a bigot because I like cats and I always think dogs want to eat me. I'm speciesist and need subconscious bias training to not be scared of dogs. But then I can respond by saying I think ancient egyptians are cooly and are aesthetically similar to Japan and they like cats, where Europeans gave horrific treatment to cats, so I have the right to be biased as it's payback towards Europe, so there. And cats make good go players because they're territorial. Although maybe not because they might get too greedy and give their opponents too much influence influence. Hmm :scratch:

*Now I think about it, I'm always felt terrible at anything like personal statements or 'why I like things'. I just can't snowflake brag myself to success, sorry. But then I'm able to understand why I like go and explain it, so maybe I'm naturally too reserved for a self-advertising world until the moment I make a concerted effort to be more open.
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From now on this is a journal not just about studying the game, but also teaching the game. I want to be a blackbelt at teaching too!

Full Disclosure: 1 Dan is a black belt with a white stripe. 7 Dan is actually a pure black belt. So as I said in one of my earlier posts, I want to reach 1 Dan but also 7 Dan in the far future. However my definition of 1 and 7 Dan has changed. 1 Dan is about good enough for a 50% score in the Japanese pro exam, and 7 Dan is about a 1/1+3e chance of winning against the fourth best player in the world. However 최 정's baduk did make me realise, that perhaps the number one thing we should tell beginners at baduk is not to lose your first 50 games, or any other proverb. The one proverb they should absolutely follow above all else is to ONLY focus on what they're good at in baduk. Huh? But I thought to get strong you must train your strongest points and your weakest points? Well, if you've reached a plateau were you don't seem to be able to improve anymore, then it makes sense to start improving your weak points. However for amateurs there's absolutely no reason for them to try and have a balanced style from the get go. Choi Jeong has already advanced her reading to a very high level and in the Samsung Cup she focused being more patient than normal. When you're already a top pro then you focus on weak points ;-)

But what if you're a pro that teaches? You should make it abundantly clear what your style is so that people hire you specifically to learn a certain style.

So I will focus on life and death and endgame for now to get me to 1 Dan, yes Törmänen level, by the 2023 spring equinox. I'm currently 9kyu on OGS which is probably about low double digit Kyu in my system. I used to be OGS 2 kyu but my mental issues made me drop to 9 kyu. A few times I resigned games I was winning because I was mentally exhausted just from playing a game.
For now I'll focus on my health and in January I'll start the serious tsumego training.

91+(5/16) days of games that at minimum involves players who have played or have played players who have played in an international tournament are put in a very simple system, but games between players who've play multiple times in that period are reduced in weight for every game, and the same to half that extent for second-order relations. This should remove any bubble effect. Then the fourth highest rank player on the list is set as having e^9.00 points, the beginning of 10 Dan. So there are always four 10 Dan's in the world and each Dan below represents e times less winning probability.

So by the spring equinox I want to make the list and have a level equivalent to the e^0.00 to e^1.00 level on the list. By that time I also intend to create a document outlining the long term strategies and short-term tactics that could be used to make Lentitears a truly global game by 2026 spring equinox. From between the 2023 spring equinox and the 2024 spring equinox I will compare myself to the 7 Dan standard. The year after that the 9 Dan standard, and then from then on AI standard. I don't know if I'll get significantly stronger but the aim is to improve the beauty of my moves as a mathematical artist; by definition mindsport players are mathematical artists, artists who use math to make art and sometimes art to make math.
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At this point in time it doesn't make sense to set go level goals when I haven't fulfilled my health goals, as my mind is still blocking me from reading however I've made progress in that regard, also focusing on the Light Novel would also probably be better, therefore I'll move my timeframe to achieve blackbelt to the Autumn Equinox.
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Yesterday 2024 March 04 is the most likely day my trueAge turned 24 years old, and so I think it's a good time to start the new phase of this journal especially with the 2023 Senko Cup going on, the games of which I'll review to restart of this journal and this post conveniently starting on a new page.

Essentially, I want to take a laidback attitude and focus on baduk reporting and teaching and creative work and health improvement until about the Autumn Equinox near Learn Go Week in September, from which I will intensly try to aim for eulerratings 1 dan by the end of this gregorian year, which is a level I think would help me appreciate pro games more when I'm reporting it, and having reached it, I could then refocus on baduk reporting but also creating an international baduk enhancement strategy。I try to use a word to denote that the primary neither an increase in the number of players or the overall strength of players, but rather implementing baduk around the world in a manner that is co-benificial to the success of the communities it's planted in and it's appreciation in those communities. I'll call it the Surrounding Gardens Project from the name I made in 2014 for the ethiopian girl go story, which may be cringe but this general sentiment is something I had near the very start of my igo career in late 2011 when my oldest younger sibling discovered a game for ヒカルの碁 on vizzed.

In any case the entire point of me wanting to get better at baduk was to play stronger people and understand their games, although I will finally admit the embarassing truth that as I do think the work schedule of professional igo is better suited to my personality type than a majority of other professions, I did give serious consideration to attempt to join the professional rungs, however in the unlikely event I reach the required level of baduk ability I now think I would be able to be of more benefit as a professional amateur. I deem it necessary to state that the difference in level between a top European player and top pro is about 6 euler dans, which is about the maximum difference in skill where the weaker player can understand and appreciate the stronger players games, to be honest probably also vice versa on an instinctual level.

I do enjoy the concept of weakers players trying to find ideas from games stronger players played and then commented on to describe their thoughts, which also would make life easier for a stronger player attempting to understand how the weaker player was thinking during the game.
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So, I'm going to become a pro in Korea. On this journal there's endless evidence of my talent for making special moves such as ridiculous blunders and placing the stone on the wrong point on the goban on a face-to-face game, so I think that shows I got what it takes. But obviously, special training would be needed. So I devised that reviewing games backwards in my head to the tune of the Cardcaptor Sakura theme tunes is the perfect scientifically proven method to boost your strenth to pro level. I would have also added solving tsumego while doing a headstand, but that image in my head is unflattering, I'm not Sorelle Amore. In addition to various forms of blind-go training and reverse review training, I will play any opening move that loses less than 6 points.


I will add 13x13 to my training because 9x9 is far too much more popular than 13x13, so I don't play 9x9, so I will start a social activist cause to give 13x13 proper representation.
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Elom0 wrote:[...]I'm going to become a pro in Korea[...]
Is it immediate in effect on this date that you now become a professional? I think this means a rating reset to 2700 for you! :mrgreen: :mrgreen: :mrgreen:
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kvasir wrote:
Elom0 wrote:[...]I'm going to become a pro in Korea[...]
Is it immediate in effect on this date that you now become a professional? I think this means a rating reset to 2700 for you! :mrgreen: :mrgreen: :mrgreen:
Hahaha, why didn't I think of that one, haha :lol:! Yes a small bump in my rating from 1900

Unless I find a workaround and say I'm a pro, but a 0 professional dan so I don't get the rating reset. Elom 0p
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I'm going to try to reach EGF 1 dan level by just studying my games from the 2014 Pandanet World Championship and the 2022 Hoban Cup, and watch a few videos from Eunkyo Do, Evan Cho and Awesome Baduk. 19 to 21 times 2 weeks from last period is gestation time, after 26 times 2 weeks the baby is a year old from conception. 1 + 06 = 07 years from conception unique, 1 + 12 = 13 years from conception = semi-adult, 1 + 18 = 19 years from conception = adult, 1 + 24 = 25 years from conception = high developmental period over. So I have less than a year left unless I'm one of those uncommon people who can improve after 25.
























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I think 10 years counts as the far future so while I would have failed to get to 7 dan I do feel like I have achieved the beginnings of some kind of baduk philosophy so the greater goal of the Journal has been fulfilled! But after the regular league of the baduk league I basically have Zero motivation to get stronger, and I have even less mental stamina than before though, barely being able to play, so watching all the English go content the way I want to isn't possible . . . I'll then after that I'll switch to 90% promoting and developing baduk.

Actually, after the baduk league regular league and my confidence plummeting to 0 I want to quit trying to get better at baduk now since I don't have the motivation or mental energy to study baduk, but it would be a shame not to try new learning methods, and I also have had another reason to want to not be such a weak baduk player which is that in the London Opens I was unsure to ask for a teaching game with the professionals, but at the same time felt conflicted about missing such an opportunity, eventually hesitatingly asked Choi Dongeun 1p but it was at the end of the day when she didn't have time, and I was a little relieved, haha, that's because there's a certain pro I want to play, and my first game against a pro shouldn't be me playing badly as some weak player.

After the baduk regular league I had zero confidence, but it got a bit better right after that in the playoffs. In addition, the pros are close enough to AI to give me Zero Confidence and I basically freeze up and play random moves in the opening. Oddly enough, handicap games by pros with amateurs give me more confidence, because I can see where the Amatuer is making mistakes in those first 50 moves. I'll only look at openings from handicap games until 21st of July.

21st of June to 28th of June
Three Elements of Endgame
28th of June to 15th of July 2023
Three Moments of Middlegame
From 21st of July, I'll start looking at openings again, it's three aspects, and also write my book on Natural Unilism, my new religion to compete with Haruhism. In addition to my Pandanet games, I'l review my London Open games.

2014 London Open





2015 London Open





I think I might be slowly getting out of my slump . . . In fact I've started saying I think again which is a sign my brain is going back towards the right track, but it's still a long journey . . . I'm to do something I don't normally do just this once, which review a game I played while talking significantly about the OGS KataGo AI's feeling. . Personally, using AI to study really isn't my style, I much prefer human explanation, and this is despite the fact that AI moves often feel intuitive to me! Perhaps the best way to phrase AI winrate estimation are with the terms Faith or Confidence, Feeling, and we can learn from the fact that apart from Elf Go most AI are very humble in their estimation of winrate, giving a tiny percentage to one side even at the last point. This is like my childhood philosophy of always saying I think the window is open even if you see it in front of your face . . .


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Re: The way to BlackBelt

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2023 July 23rd
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Re: The way to BlackBelt

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2023 July 03rd
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Re: The way to BlackBelt

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On 2023 August 7th I tried out using ai-sensei on my first game in the Pandanet Go World Championships Preliminaries, and on 2023 september 11th I tried it for the rest of the games! https://lifein19x19.com/viewtopic.php?f=4&t=19296. Of all the games only the one with tkykjin was of good quality . . . Today decided to fully shed my by ai-phobia and I tested my 2014 London Open, and I remember most when I played the three space upper side extension in game 1, and 최동은先生 said just four spaces was better, but 50k KataGo doesn't thinks it's a big deal! Mind-bogglingly, and a bit depressingly, I am almost the age 최동은先生 was when she gave me these reviews!




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Re: The way to BlackBelt

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For important games from competitions, I will use AI review, including if I'm lucky enough to have pro-level commentary to double check their comments, but while I've had katago turned on on OGS, I will now go back I'll go back to reviewing casual games with humans only. So I will only use AI review in OGS tournaments, or league from pro academies, although I've recently haven't played online at all because I looked at the number on my win. I feel quite guilty that I didn't improve after 2015 even though Cătălin Țăranu 先生 returned again in 2016 and 2017, maybe that's a story . . . I'm still solving my mental issues . . .




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