Thanks for the many inputs.
Bill Spight wrote:I think that you were a bit ahead at move 45.
I seem to overestimate thickness even though i underuse it..
There seems to be a consensus on the main mistakes:

,:b55:,:b89:
what is frustrating is that i regretted those moves almost as soon as i played them, in particular for

. i knew it was not the way but i was afraid of the cut.. i think the following deadful sequnce was because part of my brain was still shouting at me for that

i did not think it was that big a mistake at the time, even tough i regretted it. i knew that W was alive, but i was afraid i think about the following shape:
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i wanted to prevent W to turn on my head
for

i thought about the avalanche but the only thing i know is that it's complicated so i went back to what i knew .. on retrospect it would have been better to play non joseki but consistent with the right side.
after that i play a string of bad moves... don't know what went through my mind
Araban wrote:Your thickness is beautiful, like a garden...and 58 is the dog who trampled all over it.
nicely put
some things i really did not think where mistake at the time:

: how could i miss S4 ??

yes i see now wrong direction.. i did not see my

as pushing from behind
Thanks again i ll try to make good use of that

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